Chapter 8
Chapter 8
Ye Moxiu and Jiang Nan didn't contact each other until Bian Sheng's birthday.Several times when Ye Moxiu wanted to call, he took out his mobile phone, and even jumped to the interface of Jiang Nan's number, and he would log out in the next second.
He was worried that Jiang Nan would question him, who was Bian Gunan.
How should he answer?
He didn't have an answer, so he couldn't start. He didn't even have the ability to explain, or in other words, he didn't have the mind and desire to explain.
Buried in the deepest part of his heart, Bian Gu Nan is a secret that cannot be peeked at. It is intertwined and intertwined in the bottom of his heart. If he wants to make it public, it will definitely make him dripping with blood.
He was reluctant to take it out, and he didn't dare, because he still wanted to live.
He leaned back in the soft leather chair.How long has it been since he thought of Bian Gu Nan? It doesn't seem to be long. That person always appears when Ye Muxiu is most vulnerable. Every time he is drunk or his consciousness is chaotic, he will appear in front of his eyes and in his mind. , appeared in his heart.
Ye Moxiu bit his lip hard, trying to use the pain to drive away Bian Gu Nan's imminent appearance.He opened his eyes without blinking, and his eyes were getting redder. He wanted to use this method to tell himself that his eyes were red because he didn't blink.
On Biansheng's birthday, he didn't think about what to give, so he bought a pen.When he arrived at the training institution, Bian Sheng was still leaning against the wall and waiting for Ye Muxiu. This time Ye Muxiu didn't get out of the car, but just lowered the window and called Bian Sheng's name.
Bian Sheng was probably counting the white clouds, he was slightly taken aback, looked over, Ye Muxiu put his elbows on the window sill, and waved to him.
"320 flowers, almost three hundred."
Why not come a few minutes earlier, just a few minutes.
As soon as Biansheng got into the car, Ye Moxiu handed over the gift: "Happy birthday, Biansheng."
Bian Sheng looked at the thing in his hand, but didn't open it right away, turned around and asked, "Where are you going to eat today?"
"Home." Ye Moxiu said.
"Aren't you going out to eat this year?"
Ye Moxiu shifted gears, raised the car window, and cut off the autumn wind outside: "I want to eat with you at home."
These words were very helpful to Bian Sheng, and there was a slight change in that plain face, as if the sky had cleared away the clouds and mist, and it was brighter.Only then did Bian Sheng unwrap the gift. It was a black pen. He reached out and touched it. It was very slippery and cool to the touch, and it seemed familiar.
"It's a pair for me, mine is silver. It's very useful, so I bought the other one too." Ye Moxiu said while turning the steering wheel.
"A pair?"
"Yes."
Bian Sheng's eyes flickered slightly, like water.
He took off the pen cap, the nib inside was gold, and he touched it with his fingertips: "I like it very much."
Ye Moxiu said happily when he heard it: "Just like it. I'm afraid you don't like it."
When they got home, it was empty inside, with the dinner that Aunt Zhang had prepared on the dining table, Bian Sheng liked to have only two people on his birthday, himself and Ye Moxiu.
Ye Moxiu asked why before, because in his thinking, he always felt that birthdays should be lively and lively, and that there are more people.
How did Bian Sheng answer back then?
"For me, as long as the important people are around," he said.
Ye Moxiu and Bian Sheng washed their hands and sat down to eat. Aunt Zhang was very busy with the time. The food was hot and could be eaten immediately. The two of them chatted without saying a word at the dinner table. Most of them were Ye Moxiu. Mu Xiu said, Bian Sheng listened, and sometimes Bian Sheng would also say a few words. He liked to look into Ye Muxiu's eyes when he was talking. He couldn't explain why, but he simply liked it, especially when he saw himself in his eyes. , Bian Sheng will feel that Ye Moxiu's eyes are all about himself, and he will be very satisfied with this imaginary care.
When the cake was brought out, Ye Moxiu sang him the same song as before. Ye Moxiu didn't sing very well, but fortunately his voice was good, but it wasn't too bad.
"Make a wish." Ye Moxiu said.
Bian Sheng looked at Ye Moxiu for a few seconds, then closed his eyes, silently made a wish, and then blew lightly, blowing out the candle.
"Little birthday boy, it's time to eat cake." Ye Moxiu got up and cut a piece of cake for Biansheng and handed it to him, and then cut a piece for himself. Ye Moxiu doesn't like sweets, but he always eats it on Biansheng's birthday a little.
"Ye Moxiu, today I can..."
The phone rang at this time.
Bian Sheng frowned slightly, and his words were interrupted.
Ye Moxiu glanced at the phone, his expression changed, he looked up at Bian Sheng, and saw that he was looking at him.
On the phone screen was Jiang Nan's name.
Ye Moxiu was heartbroken and hung up the phone.He promised Bian Sheng that he would be with him today.
Bian Sheng's face softened slightly, and the wrinkles on the brows faded, he opened his mouth and continued what he had just said: "Today I can..."
The bell rang again.This time, Bian Sheng's face completely darkened.
Ye Moxiu looked at the phone screen, not daring to look at Bian Sheng's expression.
If Ye Muxiu hung up the phone, it meant that he was very busy. At this time, Jiang Nan would not call a second time. He would wait for Ye Muxiu to finish his work and go back, but this time...
"Bian Sheng, let me answer the phone." Ye Moxiu did not avoid suspicion, and answered in front of Bian Sheng.
"Jiang Nan?"
Ye Moxiu frowned: "Yes, I am."
Suddenly Ye Muxiu stood up with a flustered expression: "What?"
"Okay, I know, I'll come right now, I'll come right now."
After hanging up the phone, Ye Moxiu looked at Bian Sheng with regret on his face: "Bian Sheng...I have to go to the hospital."
"Today is my birthday." Bian Sheng stood up, the movement was loud, and the sound of the chair moving back was loud and grinding his gums, making his teeth sour.
Ye Moxiu picked up his coat and began to put it on: "Your Uncle Jiang Nan is hospitalized, I have to go."
Bian Sheng couldn't listen, he strode forward and grabbed Ye Moxiu's hand eagerly, his eyes turned red, he didn't know whether it was from sadness or anger, "You said you would stay with me."
"Bian Sheng, you are obedient."
Bian Sheng put more force on his hand: "What if I don't obey?"
Ye Moxiu: "I'll be right back. I'll definitely be back right away." He tried slightly to pull his hand out of the assistant's hand.
"No, you said that the one who will accompany me to celebrate my birthday will not count for a minute or a second." Bian Sheng was persistent about whether he would let go.
One side is Jiang Nan, and the other side is Bian Sheng.Ye Muxiu was also very anxious, Jiang Nan had no parents, and besides Ye Muxiu, he had no other close people to contact.He suddenly fainted at home and didn't turn off the gas before he fainted. If the neighbors heard the barking dogs, no one would know that Jiang Nan died at home.
"Bian Sheng." Ye Moxiu said, "I'll be back right away." After speaking, regardless of Bian Sheng's strength and his red eyes, he forcibly pulled his hand out and walked to the door .
"Ye Muxiu!" Bian Sheng's voice was hoarse, which made Ye Muxiu, who was putting on his shoes, stiff all over.
"Why, you adults always like to lie, my parents like to lie, and you like to lie too." Biansheng said with a suppressed trembling, "You are all liars." The last few words seemed to be taken off. Strength, light and fluffy, is more like talking to yourself.
Ye Moxiu closed his eyes, just stood at the door in a daze for a few minutes, and finally chose to open the door and go out.The moment the door of the house closed, there seemed to be a loud sound. A man looked at the closed door and the dimmed light at the door, feeling cold in his hands and feet. At this moment, the huge The room became the largest cemetery, and there was no one in it, and it was quiet, not a single heartbeat could be heard.
Bian Sheng didn't stand for a long time, and went back to the table silently, looking at Ye Moxiu's unoccupied place and the piece of cake that had been eaten, he re-lit the candle and inserted it on the incomplete cake.
After he was ten years old, he made a wish, and the wish was always just one.
I hope Ye Moxiu can outlive him.
This means that there will be someone with him all the time, and he will not be alone.
This is a very common and somewhat naive wish.It's the same every year, it never changes.
But this time...
Bian Sheng closed his eyes again, clasped his hands together, and muttered to himself: "I hope Ye Moxiu will always belong to me alone."
When Ye Muxiu arrived at the hospital, he realized that Jiang Nan was more serious than he had imagined. He had inhaled a lot of carbon monoxide, and he hadn't woken up yet, so he needed a bed companion.After paying the money, he went to the ward. In fact, Ye Moxiu hated coming to the hospital, and the hospital gave him a very bad feeling.
He sat on the chair beside the bed, looked at the pale Jiang Nan on the bed, and raised his hand to touch his face, this was the first time Ye Moxiu saw such a weak Jiang Nan.He was very helpless and sent a message to Biansheng, explaining the situation, but after a long time, Biansheng didn't reply, and he didn't know if he had seen it.
Ye Muxiu thought: I must coax her well when I go back.
During the period, the nurse changed the medicine for hanging water.
As soon as the nurse left, Ye Moxiu's cell phone rang, it was from Bian Sheng, and he picked it up almost instantly.
As soon as he picked it up, he heard heavy breathing on the other end of the phone. Before he could speak, he heard a choked voice on the other end of the phone.
"Bian Sheng?"
"Ye... Muxiu, the power is out." Bian Sheng only said these few words, that's all.Ye Moxiu panicked for an instant.
He didn't think about it at all, but took a hard look at Jiang Nan, then got up and left the ward immediately.
"Bian Sheng, don't be afraid, I'll be back right away. Now turn on the flashlight of your phone, and I'll be back right away." Ye Moxiu said anxiously, and his steps became messy.
"Ye Moxiu, I'm a little out of breath, so dark, so stuffy, something has flowed into my body." Bian Sheng's tone of crying was on the other side of the receiver, which made Ye Moxiu's heart tangle. There was a ball.
"Don't hang up the phone. If you can go, there are street lights near the window."
"It's not bright enough, it's too dark, I can't move." Bian Sheng said.
Ye Moxiu quickened his pace, and immediately started running in the next second, then called Secretary Liu, explained Jiang Nan's affairs, and rushed home without stopping.
When we got home, it was really dark, Ye Muxiu didn't stop and immediately went to the next room.
"I'm here, Bian Sheng, I'm here."
If you run too fast, your breathing is short of breath.
He opened the door anxiously, and saw Bian Sheng huddled in the corner of the wall with his head slightly lowered, only half of his face was exposed, holding his mobile phone firmly in his hand, the flashlight shone on his face, and there was no trace of blood. It was as pale as snowflakes falling from the sky, as if it was about to melt in the next second.
"Bian Sheng."
"Muxiu." Bian Sheng heard a voice.Slowly raising his head, his black hair was sticking to his cheeks with sweat, and there was still fear on his face that hadn't faded away.
Ye Moxiu took a quick step forward, hugged Biansheng in his arms, turned on the flashlight of his mobile phone, and the surrounding area became brighter again: "It's all right."
Bian Sheng didn't speak, and rubbed Ye Moxiu's neck firmly, like a person who was about to die grabbing his only lifeline.
Ye Moxiu gently stroked Biansheng's stiff back: "It's okay, it's okay. I'm back."
After a long time, Bian Sheng calmed down, Ye Muxiu wanted to see if there was a problem with the circuit, he refused to let go, hugged Ye Muxiu and refused to let go, Ye Muxiu had no choice but to squat motionless, Let Bian Sheng hold him.
"I thought I was going to die." Bian Sheng said, not like joking.
Ye Moxiu held Bian Sheng's hand for a moment: "What nonsense?"
Bian Sheng stopped talking, and after a long time he said, "Ye Muxiu, there is no light today, can I sleep with you?"
Ye Muxiu didn't refuse, but nodded. Seeing that Ye Muxiu agreed, Bian Sheng loosened his hand holding him a little bit, then held his hand and stood up. In the darkness, just this faint light, The eyes of the two accidentally collided, and the redness in Bian Sheng's eyes was deeply imprinted on Ye Moxiu's eyes, which made Ye Moxiu feel very distressed.
He couldn't help thinking how scared his side students must have been during the journey.He said that Bian Sheng is the most important thing, but he left him here alone on his birthday. He knew how afraid Bian Sheng was of the dark.When Bian Sheng was ten years old, Bian Sheng was almost suffocated to death just because the new nanny turned off the light in his room. Ye Moxiu almost lost Bian Sheng.Fortunately, Bian Sheng got better when he grew up, but seeing Bian Sheng's pale face today, he felt so guilty that he shouldn't have left.
Using the light of the flashlight, the two came to Ye Moxiu's room one after the other, holding hands all the way.
As soon as Ye Moxiu went to bed, Bian Sheng lay next to him. Before Ye Moxiu could turn around, he felt a tightness around his waist. Bian Sheng's hand had already rubbed his waist. in my arms.Immediately afterwards Ye Moxiu felt Bian Sheng's cheek against his back.In fact, Bian Sheng is smaller than Ye Moxiu, this posture looks a bit strange and funny.
"Bian Sheng." Ye Moxiu called out carefully, he moved, unexpectedly, Bian Sheng hugged him even tighter, as if he wanted to carve Ye Moxiu into his body.
Bian Sheng responded, and then he said slowly, his tone of nervousness and fear was gone: "I won't be afraid now. Ye Muxiu, if you are by my side, I won't be afraid."
Even without light.
Even if the surrounding is black.
As long as you are here,
I am not afraid anymore.
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