Chapter 73
Chapter 73
The smell of disinfectant is still so bad.
When I woke up, I squinted my eyes and looked around. I was in the hospital, and Aunt He was sitting next to the bed.
"Aunt He." As soon as I opened my mouth, I found it very difficult to speak.
Seeing that the person finally woke up, Aunt He stood up in surprise, "Mr. An, you finally woke up."
I wanted to get up, but Aunt He hurriedly stopped her and said, "Don't get up first, take a good rest, I'll pour you some water to drink."
The car accident made my reaction ability very slow. I stared at the ceiling for more than half an hour before I reacted suddenly.
I asked, "Where is Grandma Qin?"
Aunt He's face darkened in an instant, and she smiled and comforted her: "Mr. An, you should have a good rest first, I'll go out and buy you some porridge first."
Aunt He loved this child very much. He was about the same age as her son, but after a car accident, he was still so young, and life would not be so easy if he became lame.
For the first three days after waking up, it was so peaceful that I thought it was a dream.
Until, Qin Haotian came.
He sat down beside my bed calmly, gently stroking the broken hair on my forehead with his left hand, leaned over and asked in my ear, "Why are you so misbehaving?"
His calm tone and gentle movements were like the calm before the storm.
"Would you like to hear me explain?" I asked him.
His palm stroked my face, "No rush, I'll have a lot of time to listen to your explanation when you're well."
"An Sheng, you must take good care of your body, otherwise it won't be fun."
Aunt He happened to push the door in with the soup she had cooked, and when she bumped into this scene, she stood there in embarrassment, neither going out nor coming in.
"Aunt He, take good care of him, and call me if you need anything."
"it is good"
After Qin Haotian left, his words seemed to be poured into my head, and I would wake up from the nightmare every night when I fell asleep.
Grandma Qin, I'm sorry.
On the day Sisi came back, I happened to be quietly watching a family of three in a daze in the garden of the hospital.
The child was very cute. Although he was wearing a hospital gown, his face was ruddy and shiny, and he was playing with his parents while holding Transformers.
"Brother An Sheng."
Suddenly my eyes went dark, and a pair of warm little hands covered my eyes.
There is only one person calling me like this, and I know it is Sisi, "Sisi."
Sisi pouted and sat next to me, "Brother An Sheng, do you miss me?"
"of course."
"How are you doing abroad? Would you like to tell me about your interesting stories."
Liu Sisi is not a girl who can hide things, of course I understand that she has something to ask me.
"Brother An Sheng, Brother Hao Tian's grandma passed away."
"Well, I know" I know, the car accident happened suddenly, I failed to save her, and I was the only one among the three who survived.
Every night, Grandma Qin questioned me in my dreams, why didn't I save her?I wanted to explain, but she wouldn't listen, and insisted that it was my nemesis who killed her.
No one should understand it.
"You...at that time...why were you sitting in his grandma's car?"
"Sisi, do you want to ask me why I was the only one who survived and didn't go to rescue her, and the driver, right?"
"I want to save, but it's too late."
"Do you think I'm selfish, I only care about myself and don't want to save others?"
Liu Sisi shook her head vigorously, of course she didn't mean that.
In a foreign country, I suddenly received a call from my mother, only to learn that Grandma Qin had passed away, so I quickly booked a plane ticket.
Qin Haotian's expression was very wrong. Even though he had been away for a few days after the funeral, he still didn't know what he was doing in the study without saying a word.
Now that the Qin family's parents have already found out about this matter, they also know of An Sheng's existence, but the Qin family is fighting fiercely, and there is no time to take care of An Sheng at this time.
But Liu Sisi was worried about An Sheng, she always felt that Qin Haotian would not let him go this time.
"Sisi, can you do me a favor?"
"You said."
"Take me to see Grandma Qin."
"it is good."
When Grandma Qin was buried, I hadn't woken up yet.
The doctor said that I was bleeding profusely, and my brain and legs were injured to varying degrees.
The doctor told me bluntly that my left leg will not be able to get back to the way it was before, which means that I will walk with a limp.
It may be that I have experienced life and death. I didn't pay much attention to what the doctor said, nor was I very sad.
What makes me sad is that I failed to rescue Grandma Qin.
I had a hard time convincing myself that it wasn't my fault, she wasn't my fault, I was a victim too.
Twice, and both times Grandma Qin got up because of me.
It's hard to blame.
Sisi pushed me to visit Grandma Qin at the cemetery.
It is normal for Beijing to snow in winter, and it is a vast expanse of whiteness. I still liked snow very much before, but I don’t like it now.
I held a bouquet of lilies and sent them to her tombstone, staring at her tombstone, hesitant to speak but suffocated.
"Grandma Qin, you must blame me, I'm sorry, I obviously wanted to save you, but..." When I said this, tears welled up in my eyes, and they couldn't stop.
"I asked you a question. I asked if it's a disgusting thing for a man to like another man. You answered yes. Grandma Qin, do you know? I didn't know that love is divided into men and women. No one told me. sorry Sorry."
The snow is getting heavier and heavier.
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