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Chapter 39 Gone

Xie Lao San died.

Xie Jingnian was completely drenched by the rain.He was sitting in the corridor of the hospital, holding an electric guitar that was also wet in his arms.

The doctor said that Xie Laosan died of liver cancer.

When Xie Jingnian rushed to the hospital, he didn't even see the last face of Xie Laosan.

Xie Lao San died.

Water droplets fell from Xie Jingnian's eyelashes, fluttering and winding down from his cheekbones.

He sat there in a daze, his arm holding the electric guitar was stiff and white due to the long-term bleeding.

The two plasters were very uncomfortable to stick on the forearm after being wet.Xie Jingnian subconsciously wanted to tear them off, and the instant pain woke him up.

He carefully put the electric guitar aside and stood it against the wall.With the other hand, he pulled the corner of the plaster that had been torn off by him, and pulled it hard again.

It hurts.

Xie Jingnian wondered if Xie Lao San would also be in pain when he died.

Probably much more than his pain.

Xie Lao San is actually a person who is very afraid of pain.In the past, when he was cooking, he was accidentally smothered by oil, so that his arms could be grinned and howled for several days.

Xie Jingnian may also have inherited his fear of pain.In the past, every time Xie Lao San hit him, it hurt so much that he wanted to cry.

Xie Lao San has never been a qualified father, it would be more appropriate to use the word scum to describe him.His beating and scolding Xie Jingnian was as natural as eating every day.

Xie Jingnian hated him.

The hideous and ugly scars one after another, the wanton ridicule of his classmates, the stains that will never be erased from his body...

The years when Xie Jingnian was in junior high school was the period when Xie Laosan beat him the hardest.At that time, Xie Jingnian was extremely rebellious and had no advantages, so he could only hang out with gangsters all day long, extorting money from others, and then being snatched by Xie Laosan to find a woman.

Later, he thought, is there any way to leave Xie Laosan, keep him far away, so that Xie Laosan's dirty hands can never touch him again.

So he started to study hard, because only study is the only way out of this city.He wants to take the exam to the far, far south, to a big city, and get ahead, so that Xie Laosan can't even touch him.

This belief sustained him for three years.

He is going to take the college entrance examination in one year.

Thank you, the third child is dead.

What did he test?

Xie Jingnian trapped himself in an endless loop.

"Brother Rotten..."

A large shadow fell in front of Xie Jingnian's eyes, covering his whole body.He looked up at Chen Xi, his eyes were empty.

Chen Kui stroked the rainwater off his face with a pair of big hands, and smoothed out the broken hair sticking to his cheeks, with a very soft voice.

"I'm here."

Xie Jingnian pursed his cold lips, and picked up the piano bag beside him.

No matter how carefully he protects it, the electric guitar inside is still wet from the rain, and water droplets are still hanging on the strings. If rainwater gets inside, it will probably be scrapped.

"Sorry, I……"

"It's not important." Chen Xi interrupted him, squatted down and looked at him at the same level, put his hand on the side of his face, his thumb unconsciously rubbed the delicate skin of the man, and asked, "Is your face so red, is it uncomfortable?"

Xie Jingnian only felt dizzy like daytime, and didn't realize that he had a fever, so he reacted slowly and whispered: "Uncomfortable, dizzy."

There were not many people in the hospital in the afternoon, and it was only the two of them when the IV was put on.Xie Jingnian became drowsy after sitting for a while, half-closed his eyes.

Chen Kui sat on the armrest of the small single sofa and watched him, and when he saw him, he asked the nurse for a thin blanket to cover him.

Xie Jingnian closed his eyes and kept leaning on Chen Xi, wanting to smell the reassuring smell of tobacco more.

Chen Kui sat back directly, the height was just enough for Xie Jingnian to lie sideways on his lap.He put his palm on Xie Jingnian's ear, rubbed it lightly, and coaxed in a low voice: "Go to sleep."

Early the next morning, Xie Jingnian and Ji Heyi asked for a few days off.

Ji Heyi heard him explain the reason for the leave, and took the time to come over to help him take care of Xie Laosan's funeral.

Xie Lao San's funeral was very simple, and not many people came.

Xie Jingnian himself, plus Ji Heyi, Zhou Yantong, Yao Xi and Qian Ke.

Of the five people, only he should come.

Xie Jingnian watched as Xie Lao San was carried in, and when he was sent out, there was only a handful of ashes left.With his own hands, he picked out the large chunks of unburned bones from the tray and poured the remaining powder into the urn.

Xie Lao San didn't enjoy any blessings during his lifetime, but he made up for it after his death.It was Ji Heyi who bought a small jade box for Xie Lao San with the money.

The cemetery is too expensive, of course Xie Jingnian cannot afford to pay tens of thousands of fees every year.Several people drove to the nearest countryside, found a small hill and buried it.

It was also the last shovel of soil Xie Jingnian buried himself.Xie Laosan didn't even have a decent tombstone.

Xie Jingnian went down with the shovel and didn't slow down all afternoon.

Chen Xi turned down all the customer appointments, returned home, and cooked Xie Jingnian a pot of his favorite egg noodles with persimmons.

I just had a fever last night, and I ran for another day, and I was already weak and weak.

Chen Xi took the bowl, picked up a chopsticks of noodles, and fed them after cooling down, "Open your mouth."

"I'll do it myself, bro."

Xie Jingnian tried to grab the chopsticks but failed, so Chen Xi dodged him.

"I let you open your mouth."

Chen Xi forcefully fed the noodles into Xie Jingnian's mouth.He probably has no experience of feeding people, so Xie Jingnian's chin was shiny.

Chen Jiu fed all this bowl of noodles into his stomach.Xie Jingnian's coat was also wet with the collar of the noodle soup.

Chen Kui went to the shower to adjust the water temperature, came back to wash the dishes, and urged Jingnian to take a bath.

Xie Jingnian pulled on his slippers and obediently went.

His mind is so messed up now that he can't think about other things at all.He was like a marionette, he would do whatever Chen Xi told him to do.

After Chen Xi finished tidying up, he entered the room and saw Xie Jingnian sitting on the bed, without turning on the light, nestled there in a emaciated mass under the moonlight.

Xie Jingnian turned his head when he heard the sound, his eyes shone with tiny lights in the night, when he looked at Chen Xi, it seemed that there was a pool of trembling water in them, looking straight over, as if he wanted to look into Chen Xi's soul.

Chen Xie's Adam's apple rolled, and he sat over and hugged him into his arms, using a gentle voice that Xie Jingnian had never heard before.

He said: "Don't cry, brother Jiu will love you in the future."

Chen Kui's chest was very hard, and he hugged it tightly, his cheek hurting from pressing against it.But this hug was extremely warm in the summer night, and Xie Jingnian's long-prepared tears uncontrollably wet Chen Xiu's chest.

Chen Xi hugged even harder.

His heart was crushed by the fine teardrops on Xie Jingnian's eyelashes.He held the trembling Xie Jingnian in his arms, wishing he could rub him into his bones and blood, soak him so that he could no longer cry.

The person in his arms was tired from crying, and fell asleep at some point.

Chen Kui put Xie Jingnian on the bed, and gently and restraintly kissed his wet eyelashes.

The tip of the tongue sticks out between the lips.

is salty.

#run to the moon