Beginning without end

Chapter 16

Song Bai got up when the sky was just dawning, and he sat motionless by the bed for a long time.Yesterday Ji Suiyun seemed to be in a hurry. After pushing him in, the curtains of the suite were not drawn. The sky gradually brightened, and the warm light came in from the huge floor-to-ceiling windows and cast on Song Bai's back.

This is the most expensive hotel in Song Bai's poor understanding of upper-class life, the presidential suite on the 39th floor. When Ji Suiyun was pressing on him last night, Song Bai seemed to be out of his body.The huge searchlights in the Huangpu River can shine in, and it is reflected on Song Bai's face like lightning and flint. It is cold and pale, and if it is lower, it will be invisible. Song Bai only knows that it must be very lively below, and all kinds of lights have covered up the stars and the moon. of natural light.No one knows that the place far away from the lives of ordinary people is actually not mysterious, no matter how expensive the hotel is, there is no way to make what Ji Suiyun did to him a little bit cleaner.

Song Bai was a little dizzy when he got off the bed with bare feet, and walked a few steps towards the bathroom with his eyes darkened.He suddenly stopped, stepped on something sticky and soft, Song Bai's eyes widened suddenly, he stumbled into the bathroom and vomited.Song Bai felt that in Ji Suiyun's eyes, his dignity was as cheap as a condom thrown on the ground.

With eyes wide open, Song Baihong washed the soles of his feet with the shower over and over again, and it took him a long time to suppress the nausea in his throat.It took a lot of courage for him to get out of the bathroom after tidying himself up, and he took the good things and left without looking back.

At noon, Lu Fucheng called, and Song Bai was lying on the folding table where Lu Fucheng worked at home, sleeping in a daze.He didn't sleep well last night, and he barely relaxed after returning home.

Song Bai saw the caller ID, and the strength that supported him from yesterday to the present was taken away in an instant: "...Chengcheng."

"Where are you taking a nap? What's wrong with your throat?" Lu Fucheng only heard Song Bai utter two words, and began to worry in his heart: "Don't catch a cold. Once you get sick, it won't be easy to recover."

"It's okay." Song Bai took a deep breath, and tried to find the tone he had when talking to Lu Fucheng happily before: "The weather is fine today, I've been lying on your small table for a long time and read the classics, the sun is warm Yang Yang. Harbin is very cold, don’t you envy me?”

"The hotel is so hot that I can't sleep." Lu Fucheng smiled: "Also, are you sleepy because of the sun, or because of reading?"

Song Bai scolded him for looking down on people.

"Abai, I've only been here for a day, and I can't stand thinking about you." Lu Fucheng's tone became serious, serious.

Song Bai was stunned for a moment, then pretended to be relaxed and said, "You can't love me so much."

Lu Fucheng was a little imperceptibly shy: "I was too tired yesterday, and I was dreaming wildly at night. I dreamed that you were crying in front of my eyes. You were crying so pitifully. I wanted to wipe your tears, but I couldn't even touch you..." Lu Fucheng woke up in pain There were cold tears on his face.

"You're so hypocritical." Song Bai's tone was light and short, vaguely mixed with some juvenile joy and pride.But he was glad that Lu Fucheng couldn't see the tears he couldn't hold back as soon as he finished speaking.

Song Bai is like this, and maybe all the vulnerable children in the world are like this.When you fall down, you have to see if there is someone who loves you, if not, you can pretend that nothing happened, once there is someone who loves you, you have to cry until you are dark.

But Song Bai can only bear it now, he has already taken out the precious things, and he can't give up all his previous efforts.Once or twice is still in January and two months, in fact, the difference is not that big.

"Chengcheng..."

"Hey, what's wrong?"

"Cheng Cheng." Song Bai read faster and faster: "Cheng Cheng Cheng Cheng Cheng Cheng Cheng Cheng..."

"I love you forever."

When Lu Fucheng heard this sentence, he was willing to die and come back to life for Song Bai for countless times.

Lu Fucheng's phone call made Song Bai feel better. Song Bai was willing to sacrifice something for Lu Fucheng, so as long as Lu Fucheng was still behind him, Song Bai would not collapse.

He forced himself to eat something and cleaned up the house.Song Bai is not sensitive or cleanliness, but he just felt that Ji Suiyun stayed here for a while last night, and the whole room became dirty.

Ji Suiyun only said that he wanted Song Bai to accompany him for two months, but did not mention the exact time.Song Bai always felt that there was a butcher's knife hanging behind his neck, and he didn't know when it would fall.He became more and more nervous this afternoon, and he was even more afraid of his phone ringing after dark.

Fortunately, it escaped tonight.One very peaceful night, someone knocked on the door once, and it was the cherries that Lu Fucheng had ordered for him.It's very sweet and tastes like fruit in your mouth after brushing your teeth.

Song Bai loved to eat cherries when he was in high school, but they were very expensive in the Northeast, and he was reluctant to spend his modest living expenses on them. Only Lu Fucheng, a man who was reluctant to buy a professional book for himself, but She is willing to buy cherries for Song Bai.Song Baiai went to ask Lu Fucheng for a kiss with one in his mouth, and they shared it together.Sweet and cloying.

Song Bai went to work.Most of the negative impact Ji Suiyun brought to him was psychological. Ji Suiyun didn't really hurt Song Bai's body.

Li Yang saw that Song Bai was absent-minded when he was working, and said, "It's been two days since you've been rested, why do you still look like you've lost your mind? Your brother Cheng took your soul away?"

Song Bai cut a piece of the freshly baked bread and put it in a small dish for tasting, then shook his head: "It rained a few days ago, and I seem to have caught a cold."

Li Yang stared at him for a while, then said ambiguously, "Fu Cheng can be regarded as promising."

Song Bai didn't react for a while.

"I don't think he looks like he's in love with you, he's about to die, so he's about to confess to you and be a fairy." Li Yang was relieved, "Now that idiot finally knows how to mark you."

Through the reflection of the shiny table knife, Song Bai vaguely saw plum-colored traces on his collarbone protruding from his collar, his throat moved, and he wanted to vomit physiologically.He forced a smile at Li Yang, quickly brought out the pastry to be sampled and handed it to the waiter.

Song Bai pulled up the collar fiercely, the thought of seeing this mark was very bloody, he wished he could cut off the whole piece of skin with a table knife.And couldn't help thinking, if only Cheng Cheng could keep it for himself.

There were not too many people in the shop in the afternoon, Song Bai drank a cup of hot water all afternoon.He was kneeling and prostrating six times in his mind, begging God and Buddha to make Ji Suiyun forget him, but it was rare for him to hide from him yesterday.

When I was about to get off work, the Maybach stopped on the side of the side road a little ahead.The little girl in the school uniform skirt ran over bouncingly: "Brother, it's been a long time."

No matter how much Song Bai hated Ji Suiyun, he wouldn't take his anger out on the children. He forced a smile and said, "Well, long time no see. Do you want nougat?"

"Brother won't let me eat candy." Ji Suian tilted his head to Song Bai and smiled sweetly: "Brother said let me call you, and then go home together. You can go to my house and make me a caterpillar! Put more cream in it !"

Song Bai shivered.

"Ah baby, I'm here to look for you, brother Song Bai again." Li Yang was about to leave after changing his clothes, and teased Ji Suian and said a few words: "Oh, now children know how to talk to good-looking people. "

Ji Suian smiled at Li Yang: "Yeah! Brother Song Bai is pretty, I want to invite him to play with me."

Li Yang laughed, thinking that Ji Suian just casually said hello to Song Bai and was about to leave.

"Brother Yang..." Song Bai blurted out, and there was a hint of pleading for help in his tone.

Li Yang paused: "Huh?"

"It's okay, pay attention to safety on the road." Song Bai took advantage of Li Yang's unawareness, and immediately turned around to cover up Ji Sui's installation.

Li Yang left in a hurry in rush for an appointment.

Ji Suian walked out happily holding Song Bai's arm, and what he said made Song Bai tremble with fear: "Fortunately, it's not 15 minutes since I found you, or my brother would have gone to find us. He was at that time I'm going to lose my temper."

Only then did Song Bai know that whether he was called Li Yang or not, whether he agreed to go with Ji Suian or not, he couldn't escape.

"Brother—" Ji Suian opened the door and kissed Ji Suiyun's face: "There are caterpillars to eat."

Ji Suiyun clasped Song Bai's wrist and pulled him closer: "Go back and let him do it for you."

Without asking or discussing, Song Bai felt that he was not only a plaything, but also a nanny.