Beginning without end

Chapter 69

That night, Lu Fucheng did not fall asleep.He used his left hand to flip through the photo album page by page. There are many photos. From front to back is the process of Song Bai growing up.

There are also a few photos taken when Song Bai was five or six years old when his mother made fun of him wearing skirts, with a bowknot headband on his head, and a goose yellow floral dress on him, prettier than all the girls.

Cheng Cheng's mother laughed: "When Ah Bai was still in his mother's womb, we said that if he was a girl, he would promise Fu Cheng to be my wife. It's a pity."

Song Bai didn't understand anything at that time, he pulled the corner of Lu Fucheng's clothes and licked the little milk cake that Lu Fucheng bought for him: "What is a wife?"

Cheng Cheng's mother rolled her eyes and teased him: "Well... After Fu Cheng has a wife, he must give his wife all good things, such as candy, ice cream, and mung bean cake, you will have no more."

Song Bai bent his eyes and smiled softly: "Then I'll be Cheng Cheng's wife."

Cheng Cheng's mother laughed loudly, only Lu Fucheng knelt down and shook his head: "You are the younger brother."

"If I don't want to be your brother, I will be your wife."

"...It's my younger brother."

Song Bai slowly frowned, his big eyes were watery.Lu Fu became helpless, and sighed: "Well, you can do whatever you want."

Lu Fucheng closed the album, closed his eyes and smiled wryly.During the days when he was lying on the hospital bed, he always thought of the days when he was with Song Bai in bits and pieces. He was too busy for a long time, and it really has been several years since he had such a detailed recollection.But now when I close my eyes, all the past events seem as clear as if they happened yesterday.The little boy who pulled the corner of his clothes and coaxed people with a mouth as sweet as a milk cake had grown so big in the blink of an eye.

Everyone thought that Lu Fucheng should be a good brother, and even for a long time, Lu Fucheng felt dirty and guilty about his desire for Song Bai.

But now, he is just forcibly stripping away those many thoughts that shouldn't be there at all, and becoming a simple brother again.This may be true.

Lu Fucheng picked up the phone and dialed the number slowly.

Called for a long time, no one answered.

Lu Fucheng glanced at the time, and suddenly realized that it was only past eight o'clock in the morning, and he took the liberty to interrupt.

The weather is fine today, the sun is shining warmly, and the green leaves of the green plants in the southern cities, which are already clean and less gray, are even more green.

Laifu is rolling on the lawn behind the garden, the water mist of the sprinkler works from different angles, and there is a faint rainbow in the thin water curtain.The tiger cub slapped its huge pad suddenly, the rainbow scattered, and with a twitch of its claws, it reappeared.

This kind of laziness in the weather seems to have become a matter of course, Ji Suiyun woke up a long time ago, he put a hand on Song Bai's waist lightly, closed his eyes and didn't want to get up.Such a man who only regards weekends as a concept, laughs at himself and feels as if his bones have been softened by tenderness.

"Get up." Ji Suiyun breathed warmly into Song Bai's ear lightly, with a great appetite, he went to bite Song Bai's clean and plump earlobe.

Song Bai closed his eyes and shrank his head tightly, and said vaguely: "...um... let's go..."

Ji Suiyun smiled: "You get up and have breakfast with me, your work and rest time is too messy, and you will have to change it later."

Song Bai's sleep quality was not high, and the more he slept, the more tired he became, as if his energy had been sucked dry by dreams that had appeared and been forgotten.In addition, he subconsciously knew that he would have to deal with Ji Suiyun as soon as he opened his eyes, so even if his mind gradually sobered up, he was unwilling to open his eyes.

Ji Suiyun lay on Song Bai's body, so tired in the morning, it's easy to get into trouble.He simply pinched Song Bai's hip bones with both hands and straightened his hips obscenely: "If you want to lie down, just lie down and be honest."

Song Bai frowned, turned his head, his expression was no different from that of being next to a garbage dump, he even opened his eyes impatiently to look at Ji Suiyun: "You can be regarded as a person with a head and a face after all, lying on someone's body early in the morning. What's the difference between love and animals." He also felt that the words were a little euphemistic, but he actually wanted to curse a mad dog.

Ji Suiyun seemed to have been splashed with cold water, but in the end he held back his annoyance. His stomach felt uncomfortable even if he was sulking, and the anger did not rush to Song Baifa: "I kindly asked you to have breakfast, why do you look like a hedgehog."

Song Bai stretched out his arms and pushed him: "I'll go right away."

Ji Suiyun was also a little self-defeating, and got out of bed with his lips pressed together, and went to the bathroom to wash up.Ji Suiyun couldn't remember how long it had been since he suffered such a big loss, he just thought that Song Bai was too hard to please, but this little kid could still beat a snake with a stick.Thinking this way, the anger gradually disappeared, leaving only helplessness.

Zhang Na is also quite discerning. Seeing that Ji Suiyun didn't come out at this time, she guessed that he might have breakfast at home, and with a bit of preparedness, the breakfast was exquisite and rich.

Ji Suiyun went downstairs a few steps earlier than Song Bai, but when he was sitting on the dining chair, he was thinking about whether to bring over some handy cooks from the old house. Ji Suiyun was a little mentally prepared. If he wants to keep Song Bai in the future, the child will definitely make a lot of trouble. It seems that Song Bai really likes Ji Suian, so he will lock Song Bai here for a while and let Ji Suian coax him.Ji Suiyun thought that his heart had softened a lot after all, and his methods were softer than when he was younger.

"Do you want to go to the company with me today?" Ji Suiyun handed Song Bai a glass of milk and asked casually.

Song Bai shook his head: "I want to knit a sweater at home."

His phrase "at home" smoothed Ji Suiyun's hidden thoughts, and his temper became better: "By the way, knit me a scarf."

Song Bai took a look at him in surprise, Ji Suiyun didn't have any luxury scarves made of good materials, so why should he still fight for these tens of dollars a tael of woolen scarf?

Song Bai felt that either Ji Suiyun had something wrong or deliberately picked things up, so he shook his head and ignored him.

"Little heartless, can't bear a scarf?"

After Song Bai followed Ji Suiyun, he became more and more disgusted with milk. He poured himself a bowl of soy milk to cool down, but he didn't really annoy Ji Suiyun: "It's not that I won't weave for you, it's because I don't have time."

Ji Suiyun smiled mockingly.An evil fire started deep in his heart, he didn't know how this little thing would react after what Song Bai expected was only a thicker wall in two months.

If he keeps mumbling about having no time like a silly rabbit, Ji Suiyun may not be able to resist peeling off his snow-white and soft rabbit skin.

"I'm leaving, call me if you have anything to do." Ji Suiyun suppressed his thoughts, and said lightly: "Eat more lunch."

Song Bai nodded, awkwardly finished the remaining piece of red bean paste cake and wanted to go upstairs to find the wool he packed last night.Zhang Na silently cleared the table, and Song Bai paused slightly when he came to her side: "Auntie... can you leave out the sugar when cooking?"

It took a while for Zhang Na to put down the things in her hands. She was sure of Song Bai, and looked at Song Bai from head to toe with that impolite and unrestrained gaze. She muttered coldly in dialect: "Little floating corpse."

Song Bai's whole body trembled, he took two steps back unconsciously, and almost fell down.Song Bai almost avoided it.

Her disgust was so obvious and intuitive, Song Bai was really scared, and he was so scared that he didn't dare to ease the relationship with her a little bit. Song Bai originally wanted to talk to her and find a reason to give her the little pickles that his mother mailed. Bottle, tell her that in fact, the children who come out of small places have a bit of backbone and are very difficult.

Song Bai walked upstairs slowly. He sat on the sofa in a daze for a while, and reached for the wool. At this time, the mobile phone under the wool was revealed, and there was a missed call.

Song Bai took a glance at it without taking it seriously, and instantly regained his energy.He quickly called back.

After a few breaths, it was connected over there.Song Bai didn't dare to speak out for a while, he listened to Lu Fucheng's breathing from the microphone with his ears upright, his heart was beating so fast.

"...Cheng Cheng." Song Bai called softly.

Lu Fucheng responded with a smile: "Ah Bai, how are you doing these days?"

Song Bai's throat seemed choked up: "I just miss you so much, shall I go home tomorrow?"

Song Bai paused, he had a lot of things he wanted to say to Lu Fucheng: "I will never play petty temper again, from now on you can do whatever you want, I won't sleep in late, I won't bother you at work when you are drawing, and I will do the housework." I will do more, if it is really successful, I will actually do it, but you have spoiled me..."

"Abai." Lu Fucheng wanted to interrupt him, but his tone was a little doting and helpless.

"Chengcheng, I will become very good, very good, I will make you cookies, cook Chinese food, I will dry wheat bran pillows for you, and I will hug you obediently, and I will definitely only lie on your arms. won't upset you..."

"Song Bai."

Song Bai's words finally stopped.

Lu Fucheng was a little sad. There were too many small sorrows, and the big ones made him unbearable.If Song Bai continued talking, he should be selfish, and he would be so damn reluctant to let go.

"I actually have something I want to tell you." Lu Fucheng took a deep breath: "Listen to me, okay?"

Lu Fucheng's Ah Bai is the most transparent person, he is cautious and timid even when answering: "Brother, do you want me?"

"Song Bai, I've thought about it a lot during this time, and I think it's really too cruel to say it out, and I've made a big mistake from the beginning to the end of this matter." Lu Fucheng gritted his teeth, bleeding from his heart: "I don't really care about you. Just like my own brother..."

Song Bai was dumbfounded, the blood in his whole body was tingling with coldness, he was terrified, his voice was low like a kitten whose eyes hadn't opened yet being kicked: "...But, but how can there be a brother who would talk to his relatives?" Brother go to bed..."

Lu Fucheng covered his eyes with his palm, and his palm was wet with something wet: "It's my fault, Song Bai, I was too soft-hearted towards you."

Song Bai was shaking all over his body, unable to speak a complete sentence, bit his tongue through his trembling teeth, and his mouth was filled with a strong bloody smell: "Brother Cheng, brother Cheng, don't scare me, I, I was wrong, I can change it. Yes, you can't let me go, Brother Cheng, I love you, I really love you."

"Abai, let's get together and get away. Actually, I'm sorry for you. Before I met this person, I always thought you were my love, but the difference is too far, I can't lie to myself." Lu Fucheng is used to Sexually began to take responsibility, he did not want to let his baby have the slightest burden.

"I don't believe it!!" Song Bai cried: "Did someone say something to you?! I'll go to you right away, let's talk slowly, okay? Cheng Cheng, don't treat me like this, I'm really afraid of death I beg you, brother, don’t treat me like this. You still owe me a house and an air ticket. How can you just say you like someone? Didn’t you say that I am your life? "

"Abai," Lu Fucheng's voice trembled: "Don't make it so ugly, you have met the person I mentioned, he is really good. I also hope that you can meet someone who makes you feel very different." Man, I have your place in my heart, being an older brother is enough."

Song Bai's sluggish brain started to work. He couldn't believe how Lu Fucheng could have liked Xu Fei just because he said he liked it. Song Bai struggled to regain his senses: "Brother Cheng, I'll go home and find you right now. Let's talk about it." Okay. I don't believe you don't like me all of a sudden, I know, is it Ji Suiyun, is it..."

"Song Bai," Lu Fucheng interrupted Song Bai's words, and his tone was a little more forceful: "I don't want to care about you and Ji Suiyun, and I really don't want to see you again. I finished moving the house last night and gave it to you today." The call you made, the rent for next year has already been paid, and the utility bill is under your wooden boat, don’t forget to take care of it in the future.... If Ji Suiyun doesn’t allow you to go back to live, then sublet it, save more Some money, leave a few more escape routes. I am relieved that you can tell Ji Suiyun today, I originally wanted to save you some face. "

"In the future, I will disappear if I can. After all, I am a person who was too close. Don't make it so embarrassing."

The phone just hung up.

Song Bai called back over and over again, and the phone on the other side was turned off.Song Bai's complexion was scary, he was shocked by Lu Fucheng's cruelty.

Lu Fucheng left him to Ji Suiyun.This fact made Song Bai so painful that he wanted to tear his heart out.Even though Song Bai was innocent and stupid at the beginning, he has learned his lesson. He is a hurt person. How many times did he want to land on Lu Fucheng to persevere? When it hurts, tell yourself that two months is a little faster, Cheng Cheng is still waiting at home.

But now, his favorite person told him - I don't want to care about you and Ji Suiyun.

It is no exaggeration to say that Song Bai felt that half of his sky had collapsed.When he was being abused by Ji Suiyun like a dog, just think that there will be someone waiting for him, waiting to help him get up and help him regain his dignity, and he will be able to form a numb body to do those shameful things without any limit thing.

Now, no one wants him anymore.

Song Bai didn't want to believe it, he took his mobile phone, changed his clothes in a hurry, ran out the door, hailed a car, and located the rented room.

"Where are you going?" Zhang Na called from outside, she really regarded Song Bai as a canary: "Did you call Mr. Ji?"

Song Bai ignored her, Song Bai only wanted Lu Fucheng.

More than half an hour later, Song Bai stood outside the familiar door. Only then did he realize that he had lost the key that belonged to him at some point.

It was like losing Lu Fucheng's heart.