Chi Guang

Chapter 99 You Are Here, I Come to You

Wang Xu's office always has a faint fragrance of fruit tea.

He has taken many patients in the practice for several years, many of whom were troubled by love, and tearfully told various reasons for breaking up, why did he (she) not love me, I like him (her) so much, why did he (she) cheat?But most people are actually trapped by obsession, obsessed with the promise of the other party forever, forever, I swear.

But the oath is a lie that has not been exposed, just like if you don't like it, you don't like it. There are so many reasons.

At first he thought that Xu Chichuan was the same, thinking that this was an old-fashioned love story about being abandoned by a same-sex lover because of his parents' obstruction.

But Xu Chichuan spent a whole year talking about falling in love when he first met, and when he talked about falling in love from his sophomore year to his junior year.

He saw the scabbed tooth marks on Xu Chichuan's arm and the long bony scar on his left arm, and understood why he wore long sleeves all year round; he also saw the "The Shawshank Redemption" that was always in his schoolbag. 》, the margins of the page are already curled up, and there is a line of words written on the top of the title page, the handwriting is faded and slightly yellowed——

I really like you so much, but we met too early.

Love it so much, but it's too early.

The scarlet blood stains had dried up and turned into the mottled rust red that remained in the heart, like a terminally ill patient on the verge of death, who was finally admitted to the intensive care unit after rescue.

But at least it looked like it survived.

On the sofa, Xu Chichuan's almond eyes were plain and clear, the ancient well was calm, and his black shirt was thin. Wang Xu slowly exhaled: "When did he leave? After the high school entrance examination? Or after the summer vacation?"

"He didn't leave."

One sentence was like thunder on the ground, and Wang Xu was surprised: "Did you leave?"

"Didn't leave." The hand holding the cup trembled slightly: "I said, he didn't lose."

Wang Xu added tea to the cup: "Then how did he win?"

"I don't know," Xu Chichuan shook his head, his fingertips were slightly cold: "I don't know."

Mu Shihai didn't tell him.

He got 689 in the senior high school entrance examination that year, which was 23 points higher than Jiang Huiyu's. Before the score was out of Jiang Huiyu's second middle school, he called him, and he was directly enrolled in the key class with free tuition; Yang Yu and Liu Yiyu were promoted to the headquarters of No. [-] Middle School together; Huang Jing and Xie Zihuang also went to Jiang No. [-] Middle School, but one was in the key class and the other was in the parallel class; Xue did not take the senior high school entrance examination, she passed the independent entrance examination of No. [-] Middle School, and got her wish.

The two-month vacation, the first long summer vacation in his life, was like a dream to him.

Mu Shihai took him to many places and did many things.

Carrying a tent to go camping in Nanlu Mountain, lying on the ground side by side, looking at the sky and counting the stars, they rolled together naturally, on a moonlit and starry night, two figures overlapped and intertwined in the jungle grass, he climbed The kiss on Mu Shihai's shoulder seemed as long as a century.

The crescent moon was filled with stars, and they all fell into his eyes.

Take him to ice skating and buy him his first pair of skate shoes; go to the zoo to see giant pandas and buy him a super cute plush baby seal in the aquarium; Hei Yibai is very popular; accompanied him to all the museums near Jianggong, bought a lot of postcards and asked the staff to stamp them; also went to Nanjing University, standing in the teaching building of the history department, Mu Shihai touched Touching his head: "We must work hard, Zai Zai."

At that moment Xu Chichuan almost cried.

He dragged Mu Shihai to the Smell Museum, a shop specializing in perfumes: "Choose a scent, and I'll buy it for you."

"You choose." Mu Shihai picked up a bottle: "Choose the one you like."

In this way, I have the smell you like on me.

Finally, after smelling almost all the smells in the store, Xu Chichuan pointed to a bottle and said, "This one."

The clerk picked it up and looked at the bottom of the bottle: Everlastingwaiting

more ancient waiting

——The top note is the fragrance of lime under the sun, the middle note is the woody aroma of cedar vetiver and chamomile, and the tail note is the moist and heavy ocean.

"Okay," Mu Shihai said, "That's it."

He likes the taste of lime, like his little sun.

I also took the train to Lan Province. The two hands covered under the clothes clasped their fingers tightly and shared the same earphone. Leslie Cheung chanted softly on the MP3. He leaned on Mu Shihai's shoulder and saw The delicate and distinct jawline was absorbed in him, and he didn't close his eyes for a long time.

Don't dare to close your eyes.

He doesn't want to remember what day it is, how many days he has been on vacation, and how long it will be before leaving school. He dare not ask, nor does he have the courage to ask. The urging talisman of the sword of Damocles, with a grinning grin trying to take his lover away from him.

On the last night of going home, Xu Chichuan woke up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night, and Mu Shihai also woke up, and hugged him even tighter in a daze: "What's wrong?"

Even being pushed into his arms, he was extremely wronged: "I had a dream."

"I dreamed that you were gone."

"Never come back."

"I've gone all the way and can't find you."

"Brother." The quilt absorbed all the dampness and weakness, the night outside the window was dry, a big mouth was cut in the heart, and the truth that had been held in for a long time finally blurted out at this moment.

"do not go."

do not go.

I don't want you to go.

Mu Shihai didn't speak, he bowed his head and gently kissed off the coldness on his face, swallowing all the saltiness.

Five days before leaving school, Mu Shihai called him out. The two stood under the banyan tree in No. 23. Mu Shihai handed him a mobile phone and a box. When he opened it, it was a watch. He knew the brand, and The one in Mu Shihai's hand is the same, the black strap is exquisite and glossy, and the dial is elegant and simple.

The boy who likes black is wearing a white T-shirt today. Mu Shihai put his hands in his pockets, looking as cool and handsome as when we first met: "School gift, wear it well."

"Eat well, sleep well, don't be picky eaters, eat less chocolate, drink less nutrition express, and don't catch a cold when the season changes."

"My brother has something to do."

"You have to be good."

"If you have any problems, go to No. [-] Middle School to find Ye Jing. If he can't solve it, go to Qin Sanyan. I have the phone number in my mobile phone."

"Xu Chichuan."

He took a step forward, eyes as deep as the sea.

"wait for me."

When they parted, Mu Shihai insisted that he go first, and he was not allowed to look at his back.

"Go, don't look back."

It's just that his cub didn't go far and ran back and ran into his arms, whimpering: "You..."

"Ok?"

"Don't want me to send it?"

"No."

"Forget it!" Xu Chichuan suddenly pushed him away fiercely, his eyes were red, and his chin was raised proudly and cutely: "Then, then go to the head office!"

"Send me a message when you get there, no, you have to send me a message every day, tell me what you eat and do, or I will..."

I got angry.

The weather was very hot that day, and there was no cool breeze in the hot and muggy morning. 16-year-old Xu Chichuan wiped away his tears and walked home from school for two hours.

Shen Sijing looked at his flushed face and was startled: "What's wrong, Xiao Chuan!"

"Mom," he was listless, lowered his head to cover his face, and cried heavily in his nasal cavity: "Mu Shihai is gone."

"Gone? Where are you going?"

"His father wants to send him abroad," the emotion found an outlet, and it was like a torrent of gates, tears streaming down the fingers: "I don't know when I will come back."

Shen Sijing patted him on the shoulder and comforted him: "It's okay, it's just that the distance is far away. If you are good friends, the friendship will not be broken because of the distance."

"No," Xu Chichuan shook his head vigorously, "It's not like that."

"He's such a big boy and he's always crying." Shen Sijing twisted the towel for him: "If you don't want him, you can hang out with him more while he's still in the country. You can still use the computer network to contact him when you go abroad, no As for crying like this."

"Besides, a lifetime is very long. You will meet many different good friends in the future. Even if there is no Mu Shihai, there will be others."

Will not.

He will meet many people, but none of them are Mu Shihai.

He will never like others the way he likes Mu Shihai.

For the remaining five days, he was very depressed. Shen Sijing was afraid that he would be exhausted, so she must drive him out to play.

He went to find Lu Miaoyi.

Uncle Lu accompanied Aunt Lu on a business trip. There were only the nanny and Lu Miao at home. Lu Miao was delighted at the first sight of him: "Do you know Moore Manor? Your red nose is very similar to that big-nosed mole."

"……roll."

"What's the matter, listless? Tell Dad, Dad will share it for you."

"Mu Shihai is leaving."

"Go? Where?"

"Go abroad."

"...Their family is rich enough."

"Lu, Miao, Yi!"

"Okay, okay, come on," Lu Miao put his arms around his shoulders: "Listen to Dad telling you the truth."

"First, whether he will leave or not is not up to you, nor is it up to him, it's his father who has the final say, so whether you are sad or happy, you can't change the result of his going."

"Secondly, he is gone, not dead. As long as people are alive, there are infinite possibilities. It's not like he won't come back. Why are you crying like a dead father?"

"The third and most important point," Lu Miao looked at him, and said every word seriously: "No one really can't live without someone."

"It doesn't matter what your relationship is."

Xu Chichuan's back felt cold, causing a slight shudder.

he……

"Fuck! Damn it!" Lu Miaoyi suddenly jumped up and hurried to the kitchen: "I forgot to plug in the kettle!"

Xu Chichuan listened to the first half of Lu Miaoyi's words, and since he couldn't change it, he just accepted it, but he didn't accept that he was going to leave, but accepted that he would come back one day.

Jiang No. 30 Middle School is located in Gongbei District, more than [-] kilometers away from home, so they can only live on campus and come back once a week.Shen Sijing started tidying up half a month in advance, toothbrushes, towels, clothes, bed sheets, desk lamps, sneakers, slippers, mosquito repellent, hangers, laundry detergent, shampoo... I wish I could bring him the whole house.

The night before school started, Shen Sijing packed everything: "The bedding is in that big suitcase, hang up all the clothes in the dormitory first, if it's not convenient to wash at school, bring it back to mom to wash, and if there's anything missing, I'll call mom Phone, let your dad send it to you."

"Okay, I know, don't worry," he hugged Shen Sijing, "Thank you, Mom."

Sign up at ten o'clock, and Xu Youhua drove him to school at seven o'clock. Shen Sijing originally wanted to follow, but he refused: "I can do it myself."

The school gate was overcrowded, private cars were parked all over, parents followed their children up the steps carrying big bags and small bags, Xu Youhua searched for a long time before finding a parking space, two people carrying boxes: "Let's go."

Jiang No. 300 Middle School is the high school with the best teachers in Gongbei District. It just moved to a new campus last year. It covers an area of ​​more than [-] acres. There are six basketball courts alone. The entrance to the school is a large open square with plantings on both sides of the square. There are lush trees, a statue of the first principal and a musical fountain stand in the middle, the Hongyi Building directly opposite is the school’s administrative building, the row of buildings with white walls and red tiles to the left is the teaching building, and the dormitory is on the back hill. A long uphill, male and female dormitories on the left and right, separated by a high wall, the wall is covered with green vine leaves and purple flowers.

The bulletin board was covered with shift lists, and Xu Chichuan saw his name at a glance:

Xu Chichuan, Class [-], Senior High School

Without looking any further, he found the new classroom with the paid bill. The teacher in charge was a young male teacher, with black-rimmed glasses and a strong bookish air, which made people feel good at once. He saw the work card on the man's chest, Li Yuzhun.

"Hello Mr. Li."

"Welcome," Li Yuzhun smiled at him, and took his list: "Let me see, um, Xu Chichuan, ah, I know, that kid with a perfect score in the history of the high school entrance examination, here," the man gave him a key : "Dormitory 329, there are only five people in your dormitory for the time being, and three of them have already come. Find a seat to put down your schoolbags, and then go to the dormitory to pack your things. Come to the classroom at ten o'clock for the class meeting. Are the parents coming? Are there many things? "

"Here it is, not much, thank you teacher."

There are six people in the dormitory, bed and desk, private bathroom with air conditioning and hot water, the three beds on the left have already been occupied, he chose the middle bed on the right, Xu Youhua put down the box: "Do you want Dad to help make the bed?"

"No need," he opened the box and hung up his clothes first, "I'll shop by myself after I sign up."

"Then dad has gone back." Xu Youhua took out his wallet and gave him 500 yuan: "It's not enough to tell dad."

"Thank you Brother Xu."

"Study hard, pay attention to safety, and get along well with your classmates."

"it is good."

After the door was closed, Xu Chichuan put down his clothes, pushed open the balcony and was surrounded by greenery, and when he looked closely, he found a small hidden garden hidden behind the tree.

There are so many woods, how busy the dean is.

Looking up, I can see the blue sky in the distance, and Jiang No. [-] Middle School is only ten kilometers away from the airport, and I can often see flights taking off and landing over the school.

I don't know if Mu Shihai has arrived.

Hearing the sound of the doorknob being turned, Xu Chichuan turned around. It should be his fifth roommate: "Here we come."

Before touching the hand, the door was already opened, looking at the unpacked boxes all over the place, Xu Chichuan panicked: "I'm sorry, I'll..."

"Cubs."

Snapped!

The hangers in his arms were strewn all over the floor, he was stiff, and slowly and unbelievably raised his head, his fingertips trembling slightly.

Such a title, such a familiar tone, and this familiar voice... Is he dreaming?

"Xu Chichuan."

The man raised his hand, pulled him into his arms, and said in a low voice, "I'm here."

I'll accompany you to a high school.

Not a dream.

He smelled the familiar scent of lime, with a hint of cedar, that he had sprayed on the man himself.

Tears welled up.

"you……"

What he wanted to say was stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say a word. He wanted to ask too many questions, and he didn't know which one to ask. Mu Shihai folded his arms and hugged him tightly, so tight that both of them felt pain.

But the pain does not want to let go.

Xu Chichuan cried with snot and tears, and the tears covered Mu Shihai's body: "Why, why, why?"

"That, that, that, that day, why, why, no, no, don't say?"

"I haven't decided that day yet," Mu Shihai wiped away his tears, and said lightly, "I exchanged some things with my dad, and then I don't have to leave."

"What, what?"

"It's not important." Mu Shihai kissed him on the face: "It's not important."

No matter how he asked Mu Shihai, he refused to say anything, kept his mouth shut, and was so entangled by him that he had no choice but to say: "I will tell you when you graduate and you are admitted to Nanjing University."

Xu Chichuan still hesitated, and grabbed his cuff tightly: "Really, really, can you not leave?"

"Don't go."

"you are here,"

"I'll come to you."