nostalgic

Chapter 23 Chapter 23

"Then have you seen it?" Tang Yun was curious and even worried.

"I see, the extremely beautiful young woman in the rumors is Mrs. Jane." He Rujing no longer played tricks to solve the mystery.

Tang Yun was both surprised and inexplicably took it for granted.

"But that day when Jiangnan came to Jian's house, didn't you still ask me who she was?" Tang Yun recalled the situation at that time and suddenly had doubts.

"Can't you see such obvious hostility? Miss Tang." He Rujing's tone was slightly mocking.

Tang Yun blushed unconsciously.

"I'm kidding, to be honest, I'm not a delicate person. I'm not sensitive to anything except the drama and the display of objects." Tang Yun laughed at herself.

He Rujing seemed to understand and turned his head to chuckle. Seeing He Rujing's attitude, Tang Yun felt a little annoyed, but in order to continue listening to the stories that happened when Jian Lai and Jiang Nan lost contact in the years, they still turned off the alcohol lamp together. Silently, he picked up the lamp cap to suppress the anger in his chest, and the few strands of tobacco remaining in the air slowly dissipated in the dull atmosphere.

"Could it be that Jiangnan pretended not to know you that day?" Tang Yun tried to break the awkward and weird atmosphere.

"Mrs. Jian really doesn't recognize me." He Rujing straightened his crossed legs.

"In the story of these two people, I am just a bystander." He Rujing added later.

"In Mrs. Jane's eyes, I'm just a piece of background behind Jane Lai, or the most inconspicuous piece of decoration. The shadow cast in her eyes is Jane Lai. How can she see me?" He Rujing sighed softly.

"Could it be that you like Jiangnan?" Tang Yun couldn't believe the sadness revealed in He Rujing's expression.

"I guessed wrong again. I don't like Jiangnan, but I have deep doubts about myself." He Rujing's mouth was filled with a triumphant smile.

Tang Yun seemed to have a little understanding of He Rujing's true temperament during this conversation, so she listened quietly from the sidelines.

"Then tell me the reason why I was sent to Qingchuan Nursing Home." He Rujing changed the topic, and the topic was led to an unknown direction.

Tang Yun's heart was faintly lost, but her kind nature manipulated her facial features to put on an expression of interest.

"What was your ideal when you were a teenager?" The topic was pulled away again like a ball of wool that kept tumbling.

"A drama actor." Tang Yun replied without thinking.

"Aren't you going to ask me about my teenage ideals?" He Rujing inadvertently revealed a bit of delicacy and innocence.

"Then what is your ideal?" Tang Yun hesitated for a moment and asked cooperatively.

"When I was a teenager, my ideal was to be a container. When you grow up to this age, have you met someone with the same ideal as me?" He Rujing revealed a look of incomprehensible pride.

"Container?" Tang Yun's mind flashed through the test tubes, beakers, and Erlenmeyer flasks lined up in the metal filing cabinets in the school's laboratory.

"For example, the lockers in the waiting hall of the railway station, the big ones are the aircraft cabin, the train carriage, the small ones are the spherical shells of pills, cans, and sealed boxes. My ideal exists in this form in the world." He Rujing made a Comprehensive and detailed summary.

"So you were sent to a nursing home for this reason?" Tang Yun tried to understand.

"Well, the euphemistic way of saying it is to be sent for treatment, and the straightforward way to say it is to be abandoned in disguise. My mother thinks she must have committed some crimes to give birth to me for the rest of my life. Or a daughter for decoration." He Rujing brushed back a few strands of black hair that fell from behind his ears.

"During the whole year of staying in the Qingchuan Nursing Home, my mother never visited me once. After the prepaid fee was used up one year later, the staff called my mother and asked her to come to the hospital to make up for the arrears. The phone calls gradually changed from perfunctory evasion Busy tone, shutdown, empty number, my mother left me in Qingchuan like a burden, and went to have fun alone.” He Rujing lamented.

"The solution for bad girls to encounter setbacks has always been to execute themselves, and I am the same. If I lose my life, I will be completely reduced to a lifeless object. That's fine, isn't it?" He Rujing's eyes seemed to be looking for Answer.

Tang Yun's thinking was firmly imprisoned in the foggy forest created by He Rujing.

"It took me a long time to use a bed sheet to stretch the two steel fences outside the window from side to side. Because I was thin, I easily slipped sideways through the funny gap that was spread out like two bow legs. Half of my body was suspended in the air, and half of my body was left in the ward. When the patients saw me, they either cheered for joy, or ran wildly with laughter, and made me jump down, but Jane Lai reacted differently."

The long-awaited name appeared in the illusion like a compass, trying to lead Tang Yun out of the fog step by step.

"You think you are a container?" Jane Lai broke into the ward and raised her head and asked He Rujing who was half hanging in the air.

"If you keep silent, then I'll treat you as a container. How about a suitcase? A rolling suitcase, it rattles when you walk, so where is the handle? Where do you tie the packing belt?" Jian Lai leaned on her chin He walked around the open space at He Rujing's feet twice, gesticulating and studying carefully.

"However, since you are a container, how can you have the right to fall freely? You are a suitcase, and I am your master. Before your master speaks, you have to stand there obediently, so that you are a suitcase." Qualified container." Jian Lai frowned and ordered He Rujing, and at that moment He Rujing seemed to have found his belonging.

"Gradually I was tormented by a feeling. Every time I saw Jane Lai and Mrs. Jane, I felt jealousy swelling in my heart. Desire was about to break free from the full body at any time, as if it was about to burst and erupt at any time. My outlook on life It has completely changed. I no longer simply expect to make a vessel, an amphora, or a lacquer box. I am no longer addicted to making the prop tree and background board that the two love. The posture of the living body occupies Jane Lai alone." He Rujing's eyes flickered.

Tang Yun stood outside the mist and looked back at He Rujing who was drowning in it, there was a little bit of distress and love in her eyes.

"I generally understand what you said. The meeting in the nursing home established the subordinate relationship between you. The occurrence of unrequited love allows you to protect Jane Lai in the original way even though you are willing to be a container and your mind has changed. .” After thinking for a long time, Tang Yun guessed further.

"I guessed half right. Just like the desire to live in this world as a container will be shattered, the desire to occupy Jane Lai alone also suddenly faded due to an unexpected event one day." He Rujing seemed to recall from memory. Breaking free from the middle of the night, he leisurely sold the lawsuit with his feet up.