online dating to a movie star

Chapter 9 Chapter Remembrance

Of course Ying Fuxuan knew that what his mother said was true, but he still felt that it was difficult to take the first step. After all, the last time he was dating was too disappointing for him. In fact, it was not just the last time.

His initial brief relationship wasn't great.

When he came into contact with radio dramas in junior high school, he was very interested in this thing.

In addition, he was still in the period of confusion and exploration of sexual orientation at that time, and he was young. When he saw BL radio dramas and novels with two male protagonists, he was curious and nervous. surprise.

After learning about it for a while, he found that most of the groups who like BL culture on the Internet are women, and most of these girls are friendly and tolerant to the gay community.

He also felt a lot of goodwill in it, checked some information, and read a lot of texts that may seem a little hypocritical today, and gradually realized that it is normal to like the same sex.

I also recognized myself from the bottom of my heart, convincing myself that this is very normal, but the current social concept will regard it as heresy.

There is nothing wrong with him and nothing wrong with him.

As for the two male protagonists in most radio dramas and online articles, their love is epic, and most of them are even set as a couple for a lifetime.

It also allowed him to plant the seeds of fantasies about the beautiful love of the same sex, because he was young and naive at the time.

When he was in high school, he debuted as a cv because of his hobby, and the scripting and posting of dramas went smoothly, and he also made many friends.

Many of them like the same sex, and most of the people in the circle are blessing and craving cp, the atmosphere is really friendly.

So he was really happy at that time. He always felt that this was his utopia, and his fantasy of love still existed.

As he has been a CV for longer and longer, he has also witnessed several CV online dating couples develop into reality.

At that time, his fantasies about love were indeed shattered a little, but it might still not be on him, and it was inevitable that he was lucky.

Also, when he came out to his family, it went smoothly. His parents are university professors, so they are naturally very rational.

After careful communication, I only asked him not to worry too much about the society's views. He lives his own life, so he just needs to take care of himself.

Under such a premise, he made his first boyfriend in college, because he liked boys a few years older than himself, so that boyfriend was a senior in his junior year.

All love stories start with a warm and clingy one, but after a few months he finds that the other person is a little absent-minded.

He would even keep looking at his phone when the two of them were dating together, and when he asked, the other party would only talk about it.

At that time, he felt that the other party was hiding something from him.

Sure enough, one day a month later, he saw with his own eyes that the other party brought a girl into the hotel where the two of them had been, and did not come out until the next morning.

At that time, he didn't quite understand why the other party treated him like this. After calmly thinking about it, apart from the initial surprise, the rest was disgusting.

When he thought of the man not only cheating him, but also cheating the girl, he couldn't help feeling sick.

The man saw him when he came out of the hotel with his arms around the girl early the next morning, and the other party seemed a little flustered.

But he only looked at the other party expressionlessly, then lowered his head and blocked all the contact information of the other party, and he never saw the other party again after that.

Although the other party is disgusting, he is still quite hurt, which is a bit too cruel for a person who has always looked forward to a beautiful love.

After thinking about it for a few days, he found an opportunity to chat with that girl for a while, and vaguely reminded her that she might be gay, and told the girl to be more careful.

But God seemed to dislike his success in other aspects, so he played a big joke with him when he was dating the second person.

The other party is a senior from his former company, he looks kind and gentle, and he is a few years older than him and is very caring. The other party has tentatively hinted at him.

He also felt that the other party's conditions were good, so he agreed to several dates, but they were all limited to eating and watching movies.

Unexpectedly, after a few days, I saw the other party's wife bringing the child to pick up the man. The man he met this time was even more disgusting than last time. It completely broke the love fantasy he had built up since he was a child. He only felt that there were some people in this group. put him to shame.

After that, he resigned from his former company, and before leaving, he also anonymously sent some chat records of his predecessor's wife who teased him.

He left that city directly, and lived in the present city B again.

For the next five years he devoted all his attention to his work and enjoyed his single life.

Free, rich and full of joy, so he has never had any idea of ​​developing a relationship.

In fact, in the first few years when he was injured, he did have some resistance to his mother mentioning this matter.

Because every time he mentions it, he feels that these two experiences are a setback to him. On the one hand, he is sure that the problem is not with him, but on the other hand, he wonders why he meets such a person every time?

The more you think about it, the more you start to doubt yourself.

Even if you rationally think that there is nothing wrong with you and that it is entirely the other party's problem, you will always criticize yourself emotionally.

For example, is he really too naive or really has bad eyesight? How can he attract this kind of scum?Is there something wrong with him?

Whenever this happens, he will force|force himself to use work to divert his attention, and continue to work and plan projects until he completely forgets those two things. The effect is quick and he has regained his original self-confidence.

This time when his mother mentioned it again, he didn't feel much anymore, and he clearly knew that the two incidents were all because the other party was a scumbag and had nothing to do with him.

If he insisted that it was related, it was just that he was too unlucky.

I have no resistance to socializing now, and I am resuming socializing, and he will go to company dinners and annual meetings.

Having a normal and healthy relationship has actually been in his life plan, but it was put on hold for a while because of external forces.

It just so happens that he has a stable job now, and the cost of trial and error is completely affordable, so he can give it a try.

So he thought for a few seconds and agreed to his mother's request.

"I will, mom, don't worry about me too much."

"If there is a suitable one, I will definitely take the initiative. Don't you understand your son? Isn't this something you haven't encountered yet? After all, this is not something that can be accomplished overnight, right?"

Seeing that her son really listened to it, and the expression on his face did not seem to be pretending, Ying's mother was very happy, and there were several plates of Ying Fuxuan's favorite dishes on the dinner table.

His father came back before dinner, greeted him happily with a few grass carp in the bucket, and said that he would make steamed grass carp with chopped peppers tonight, pickled fish tomorrow, and steamed grass carp the day after tomorrow...

Seeing that, he had to finish eating the fish his dad caught.

Ying Fuxuan silently watched the few live fish swimming around in the bucket, his eyes were indifferent and lifeless.

The author has something to say:

1. Ying Fuxuan used to be aggressive. She was cheated in the first paragraph, but she was cautious in the second paragraph and didn’t go to bed|on the bed.

2. Su Lianwen was also a victim before, and the story of his predecessor will be mentioned later.

3. Both of them are very clean and self-sufficient, neither yp nor lan have made friends with each other!

4. Both of them are set by mature men, so it is normal to have been in love.