please let go

Chapter 35

He Chuan kept silent when something happened, but if he really wanted to do something, he would always be blatant.

Jiang Chen envied this kind of character, disregarding other people's words, as if he was born fearless enough to dare to act until death, but he couldn't, he always likes to guess other people's thoughts with anxiety.

There are advantages and disadvantages, He Chuan will never be swayed by a few words, but because of his disregarding temperament, he will not predict the result.

Just like the current situation, He Chuan only knows to keep asking him for kisses, but he doesn't care about the consequences, and never thinks about what to do with the emotions derived from the many times of lips and teeth.

Jiang Chen is different, he thinks a lot, he has never been in love, so he hopes that the emotion of first love is sincere enough and long enough.

But he couldn't see these two things in He Chuan, so even though he was suffering from unrequited love, he didn't want to take another step forward.

"Have you finished your composition?" Bai Heyi came to Jiang Chen again in the afternoon to ask for a composition.

"I've finished reading it." Jiang Chen took the composition out of the drawer, and when returning it to him, he boasted, "You wrote it very well."

In fact, he also wanted to read other compositions written by Bai Heyi, but because he didn't have time, and because he thought it would be impolite to do so, he didn't read the previous ones.

"It's okay—" Bai He put a touch of pink on his face, and smiled embarrassedly.

"The scene of two people's life is really real, so I really feel sorry for the woman's death after watching it."

Bai Heyi also just smiled lightly, the joy in his eyes not only did not become rich because of this sentence, but became much weaker.When he took the composition, Jiang Chen happened to see the scar on his wrist.

Soon Bai Heyi withdrew his hand, and naturally lowered his hand, covering the scar with ease.

This action seems to have been rehearsed, but it can't hide the meaning of trying to hide it.Since he didn't want to be seen, he definitely didn't want to mention it. Jiang Chen naturally pretended to be blind.

As soon as Bai He turned around and left to return to his seat, Jiang Chen couldn't help but linger on him for a few more seconds, seeing a bit of sadness.When he came back to his senses, he laughed in his heart whether he had been with He Chuan for a long time, and now everyone who saw him felt that he had some sad experience.

In the evening, Jiang Chen couldn't help but climbed up to the rooftop, and he saw a familiar figure from behind. Before he could think about what to say, he heard He Chuan's questioning.

"Do you want to help everyone you see?"

"what?"

"Shen Chong is afraid that the confession will fail, so you help him deliver the love letter, Chen Yunkai is afraid that the online relationship will overturn, you help him run, I am afraid of the dark, you help me charge the desk lamp, what about Bai Heyi? Substitute?"

Bai Heyi?Jiang Chen didn't have time to react, he only felt that the man looked clean and bright, and his eyes occasionally revealed melancholy.

If this is the case, then the trace of melancholy revealed may be due to a broken relationship——

"I didn't know he was broken in love—" Jiang Chen spread his hands and put them down again, his eyes fell on the lights in the distance casually, and kept going back and forth among the colorful lights, sighing: "He is gay——"

"Then are you?"

He Chuan had already finished smoking a cigarette and put his hand in his trouser pocket, but he didn't take out the cigarette case, as if hesitating whether to have another one.

Jiang Chen was startled, this question pierced his heart.Is he?He didn't know it himself, after all, he had never thought of falling in love with a man before.

The neon lights in the distance are fascinating, and all that comes to mind are the lights imprinted in He Chuan's pupils every night, and his heart beats faster, "Are you?"

"I've thought about it, why do you have to classify this thing so accurately?" He Chuan followed Jiang Chen's gaze, and then moved his gaze back to Jiang Chen's face.

The earnest eyes fell on the cheeks, as if they had substance, Jiang Chen even felt that He Chuan was touching him gently.

"Then change the question." He Chuan took his hand out of his pocket, but did not take out the cigarette case. "do you like me?"

Jiang Chen's eyelashes trembled slightly, but he still looked ahead.

If he couldn't answer the first question, then he was eager to answer the second question.But he didn't dare to respond to He Chuan's gaze, and he didn't dare to say those two words. He began to hate himself for being too timid.

It's useless to say it, and He Chuan doesn't like him.

He Chuan didn't like him no matter what he said.

Jiang Chen was silent for a long time, but he still threw the question back, "What about you?"

"I like it." He Chuan's answer was unexpected but expected.

Dare to express is He Chuan's style, but saying that he likes him is not something He Chuan would do.

Jiang Chen was too shocked, hurriedly went to see He Chuan, and asked for an affirmative answer again, "Do you like it?" Then he realized that his reaction was too excited, coughed lightly, calmed down and pretended to be calm, "What do you like about me?"

"What do you like about me?"

The conversation between the two seemed to be stretched to the limit, but it was a pity that He Chuan's words of liking had already made Jiang Chen confused, and his mind was full of those three words.

He roared thousands of times into the unfathomable valley, and one day he heard an echo unprepared.

The echo repeated over and over again, as if tearing open Jiang Chen's chest, constantly reminding him of the past of his secret love.

"I..." Jiang Chen couldn't answer this question.

What he likes about him, and how long ago he started liking him, he doesn't know. After he reflected deeply, he realized that he, who is nosy, has already put himself into it.

"Can't you answer it? I can't answer it either, but we are young, and we can fall in love as we like." He Chuan is like a snake tempting Eve to eat the forbidden fruit, and what he said is heart-warming.

At a high-spirited age, who doesn't want to talk about a love without regrets.But what Jiang Chen covets is not just a short period of two or three years, he wants to last a lifetime in a whimsical way.

He frowned and thought, struggling between adhering to his self-principle or defecting to a new belief, but he couldn't resist He Chuan's eyes. After struggling for a moment, he chose the latter, "You got a hundred in math this time, and we'll be together."

"Are you acting in a TV show with me?" He Chuan asked.

Jiang Chen was taken aback for a moment, before realizing it.

That's right - isn't this kind of plot only appearing in youth school dramas?

After he said it, he surprised himself, thinking to give He Chuan some obstacles, lest this person always feel that the relationship is smooth sailing.

But after he finished speaking, he regretted it again. After all, He Chuan's achievements were there. He was worried that He Chuan would think that this was a disguised rejection, so he added, "Then will you act or not?"

"Act." He Chuan made a compromise with a smile, "Then let's rehearse the kissing scene first? A prospective boyfriend." He said and moved closer to Jiang Chen.

Through the school uniform, Jiang Chen sensed the temperature from another body, stretched out his hand to push it away, and then smiled lightly, "Let's talk about it after getting a hundred in the exam—a prospective boyfriend."

The final exam is approaching, the school canceled the morning exercises for students to review, and the teachers of various subjects also found various reasons to snatch the physical education class.

Amidst the complaints, the students picked up their pens and wrote blank test papers one after another, for this final exam and for the exam a year later.

"Stop writing." He Chuan flicked the pen, accidentally overdoing it, and the pen rolled from the table to the ground with a crisp sound.He looked tired, and didn't intend to pick it up. He left the wooden bench, slumped on the bed, and stretched.

Jiang Chen, who was sitting across from him, raised his head, looked at the paper that was more than half empty, and asked knowingly, "Have you finished?"

"tired."

Jiang Chen knew that He Chuan was not making excuses. Near the end of the period, the teacher was stuffing piles of papers to the students, trying to let the students find the feeling of the exam in the sea of ​​questions.

But there is no way to do it, not everyone is a genius, and Jiang Chen can only sum up his study methods after each exam and make timely adjustments.

He would not go home unless necessary, and would review with He Chuan in the dormitory on weekends and holidays.

Jiang Chen asked, "Have you read all the freshman high school?"

"No."

"He Chuan, take the exam in a few days?" Jiang Chen always thought that He Chuan would be more or less able to listen to the lectures, but he didn't expect that He Chuan's knowledge reserve in some subjects is not as good as that of a freshman in high school. A feeling of hating iron but not steel.

If this continues, how many years will he have to wait for He Chuan to repeat his studies before they can be together.

He Chuan lay comfortably on the bed, and said methodically: "There are still eight days."

Jiang Chen continued to look down at the question, shaking his head regretfully: "So-and-so doesn't want to be with me—"

"threaten me?"

"No." Jiang Chen continued to solve the problem without raising his head, as if he had given up.

He Chuan got up silently, squatted under the table, picked up the pen and continued writing the questions obediently.

Someone has learned it, studied it seriously, and studied it without sleep or food.

I bury my head in memorizing words and ancient poems while queuing in the cafeteria, read liberal arts knowledge points during meals, and do math problems when I find time between classes. Except for really wanting to smoke, I basically don’t go to the rooftop, and I even have to read for a while before going to bed. teaching materials.

Jiang Chen didn't know if the knowledge had entered He Chuan's mind, anyway, he was very pleased to see this performance, thinking that this person had made a huge change because of himself, and there was a tinge of pride in it.

"He Chuan changed his sex?" Even Shen Chong couldn't help asking Jiang Chen.

"I don't know, maybe I got the hang of it."

"You share a dormitory with him, don't you know?"

Jiang Chen's too obvious smile made Shen Chong unconvinced, but Shen Chong couldn't ask anything, so he could only curl his lips.

Jiang Chen looked at someone who bowed his head and was writing vigorously, and thought that even if he didn't take the [-] exam, he would still be willing to be with He Chuan.

Until the night before the end of the semester, He Chuan was still reading at night with the lights on. Jiang Chen asked him to rest early for tomorrow's exam, but He Chuan refused.

Jiang Chen really couldn't help it. He also wanted He Chuan to get a hundred in the exam, and then he would become He Chuan's boyfriend. go to sleep.

"Wait until I finish writing this inscription." He Chuan lowered his head, and the light from the desk lamp hit his hair, dyeing the fringe of it orange.

Apart from the hair, his upper body seems to be plated with gold, and the appearance of studying hard is commendable.

Jiang Chen stood there tangled for a long time, then softly called He Chuan's name.

"Ok?"

"If you sleep now, let's kiss."

He Chuan stopped writing and stood up, even knocking down the stool.

Eh?My grass?

Before Jiang Chen could react, he felt the warmth on his mouth, which was familiar yet unfamiliar.

The two hadn't kissed for a long time, and the desire in Jiang Chen's body was aroused. Instead of retreating, he even supported He Chuan by the back of his neck to meet him.

It is not He Chuan who has been keen on kissing, but himself.

"If you don't become your boyfriend, you'll take advantage of it." He Chuan smiled and licked his lower lip.

"Being my boyfriend, you can take advantage of more."

……

The two are in an ambiguous stage, constantly tempting each other to take that crucial step forward, but they are pulled back by reason, and each goes back to bed to sleep.

Lying on the bed, Jiang Chen felt a little regretful about giving this kiss. He obviously had the initiative, but he always felt that he was always in a passive state. After the kiss, He Chuan fell asleep soundly, but he couldn't fall asleep.

An ambiguous atmosphere lingered between the two of them, and this time he was drunk without drinking a drop of wine.

The boy resisted not to spit out his secret love, but his eyes declared that there was no money here, and he longed for someone to come and get the 300 taels.

Jiang Chen's eyes were lingering on the bright place, and he said "good night" softly before closing his eyes.

The author has something to say:

Why don't you guess Brother Chuan's final math score?

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