Who says support can't carry

Chapter 18 Imprisonment

After staying at home for three days, Liu Shiyu didn't go out for a single step, and he was cut off from practicing with the outside world, which made Liu Shiyu feel a lot more relieved.

If he hadn't become a professional player, if he hadn't met Si Jin, he might just be sitting at home watching TV all day with nothing to do.

But, in fact, when I encountered the League of Legends public beta when I was in junior high school, I just plunged into it and couldn't get out; when I met Si Jin, I plunged into it and couldn't get out.

I don’t have an ideal self, but I want to play professional leagues for the League of Legends, and I want to become stronger for the sake of Si Jin.

After Liu Jing left that day, he never came back, and Wu Lan also left the next day.

Liu Shiyu looked at the empty room and felt empty in his heart.

From childhood to adulthood, the love of my parents made me confident, but the days when they were really by my side were very few.

Why did he fall into it because Si Jin kissed him?

Maybe it's because of companionship, maybe it's because he feels too warm.

Every time I hold him in my arms, I feel very warm, and finally there is someone who can be by my side all the time.

But....

He still left, when he was used to his presence.When he just left, I can't remember how many times I hid in bed at night and cried while hugging the pillow he used to lie on.

It's only been half a year, but it always feels like a long time.

At first, I also thought that this kind of separation was nothing to me.The feeling is there, no matter how far away it is.

Thinking in the past few days, I told myself clearly that I am very tired, and this kind of separation is very tiring.

He didn't know how anxious Si Jin would be if he couldn't get in touch with him. He made an appointment to go on a trip together but he suddenly disappeared...

However, Si Jin Mingming adapted quickly to the new team, didn't he?

Si Jin, who never allowed others to follow, would allow Liu Danyang to follow; Si Jin, who didn't laugh outside, would also laugh; and he could joke a few words with everyone in the team.

He is no longer where he was.

Liu Shiyu took out a cigarette and drank it.

Only I was still spinning around in place.

If I am not in HAL, not in LPL, and stop playing professionally, Si Jin will still have a good life....

Such an excellent person...

Liu Shiyu took a deep breath and spat it out, remembering Si Jinping's plain words after Li Zhouyu answered Si Jin's call with his mobile phone that day.

- If you have anything to do with him, I think I'll ruin you.

- why don't you talk?Is there really anything?

These two words stayed in his heart all the time. After that night, Si Jin didn't say much, not even a text message of good night.

Although later, Si Jin also said that he would not leave.

But...the world is unpredictable, who can say that he will always be there?What's more, he was only 20 years old, and I... was a year older than him.

After going out to play with Si Jin a few times, Liu Shiyu's uneasiness could not be extinguished, and it would only get bigger and bigger.

He is always changing, always changing.

Every time he gets close, he can't help but want to get closer again, and every time he separates, Liu Shiyu will be pulled back from his dream to reality, and he will be slapped hard.

You see, you can't stick together forever, you're not on the same team anymore.

Liu Shiyu put out the cigarette, with no expression on his face, he withdrew his thoughts, went to the kitchen and began to think about what to eat tonight.

Opening the refrigerator, looking at the ingredients slowly, Liu Shiyu lowered his head and chuckled, it seemed that he planned to shut him down to the end.

After looking at it, I picked out some celery and some lean meat.

It took an hour to finish it completely, Liu Shiyu took out the last soup and put it in the center of the table, looked at the dishes on the table, and smiled.

"Thank you Comrade Liu for cooking dinner for everyone."

After Liu Shiyu finished speaking, he raised his hands to applaud himself, then sat down and started eating.

"This stir-fried pork with celery is not bad. Comrade Liu's cooking skills have improved."

"The seaweed egg soup is delicious, and Comrade Liu is making it with great care."

He took a big mouthful of rice and put it in his mouth, lowered his head to chew, and there was a sudden drip of water on the table, and the slight 'pop' was very harsh in the empty room.

Liu Shiyu only felt that his vision suddenly became blurred, but he was still eating with great mouthfuls.

"Cough, cough, cough, cough..."

There was a coughing sound, and Liu Shiyu spit all the rice in his mouth into the bowl, and some were choked into his nose. The nasal cavity was very uncomfortable, and the tears still did not stop.

He ran to the bathroom to clean himself up, and looked up to see himself in the mirror.

Her face was unkempt, her face was stained with tears, her eyes were red and swollen, and her clothes were wrinkled, which was very ugly.

He poured water on his face with a cup in his hand, wiped it on a towel and went out.

After tidying up the unfinished meal, he took it into the kitchen, and as soon as he put the bowls and chopsticks into the sink, Liu Shiyu couldn't hold back and sat on the ground, leaning his head against the wall, and began to cry softly. It was small, and then gradually became louder.

It was as if he wanted to cry out all the suppressed emotions of the past few days.

Scenes from the past flashed in my mind.

The first meeting with Si Jin, the first game with Si Jin, the first sex with Si Jin, and too much with Si Jin.

Si Jin's rebellious face was so clear that he couldn't get rid of it no matter what.

I remember the way Si Jin frowned, raised his brows, looked gentle, and smiled. This kind of Si Jin only showed so much Si Jin in front of himself...

......

I don't know how long I cried, but the voice gradually quieted down. Liu Shiyu wiped his tears with his hand, stood up and walked to the living room, took a tissue to save his nose, and stared blankly at the front, without focus.

-Don't even think about being with that man again, don't even play any professional games.

Father's words rang in his ears again.

Looking at the silent room, Liu Shiyu felt that his father was not talking casually, but was serious.

If....I can't play professionally...what about HAL?

What about Xiao Jin?

What do you do yourself?