Beginning without end

Chapter 59

Song Bai's biggest thought when he was by Ji Suiyun's side was to pass these two months quickly, and it was this faint dawn that supported him to walk down during those darkest days.But even during that time, Song Bai didn't dare to think, after these two months, even if Ji Suiyun let him go, what would his life be like in the future?

Song Bai didn't want to think about it at all.Now that things have come to this point, Song Bai can't lie to himself, he really can't go back.Those experiences are not shadows that can be dispelled by the sun, but rough and hard thorns in the deepest part of the heart. Even if the thorns are pulled out, you must always pay attention to the wound to prevent pus and inflammation, and beware of sudden pain at a certain moment. The scars are a reminder of everything that has happened.

On the night when Lu Fucheng came back from Harbin, Song Bai was hugged tenderly in his arms, his hot hands and warm breath wrapped his whole body, but Song Bai was full of nervousness and fear, he had already begun to resist being touched by Lu Fucheng.When Song Bai went out, he didn't even dare to get too close to Lu Fucheng, for fear that he would see Ji Suiyun's cold and hard face when he suddenly looked up.

But if Ji Suiyun hugs him, as long as Ji Suiyun is gentle and patient, Song Bai can get it quickly.Feeling so emotional, he would even hug Ji Suiyun's neck irresistibly, weeping and climbing up.tide.

It's not because of the lowliness, but because of the subconscious words and teachings, the subconscious feels that the pity of the perpetrator is the real safety.

After an unknown amount of time, the phone beside the pillow buzzed, and the calls came in one after another.Song Bai looked at the string of numbers on the screen and felt a splitting headache.

Song Bai covered his head tightly with the quilt, and he let the bell ring again and again like a reminder.

Song Bai almost wanted to kneel down and beg, stop beating, stop beating.In the past two months, he will not give Ji Suiyun a minute or a second. He is really sad now, and he just wants to have a quiet afternoon.

Don't think about Ji Suiyun, don't think about Lu Fucheng, just quietly lick the wound, and feel sorry for yourself.

After a long time, the room became quiet and Song Bai slowly fell asleep.

The door of the hotel room was broken open, and Lu Fucheng walked in in a hurry.In the darkness, his face seemed to be shining, and his eyes were full of love and pity.

Lu Fucheng hugged Song Bai tightly in his arms and patted him. He said, "I know everything, and I love you so much."

He said: "What are you hiding from me? I want you no matter what you become. Look, you have been bullied."

Lu Fucheng kissed Song Bai's temples as lightly as a feather: "Ah Bai is the cleanest, and the dirty ones are those who bully you."

Song Bai grabbed his collar and cried so hard that he couldn't breathe, he just said sorry to him over and over again.

Lu Fucheng sighed and stroked Song Bai's hair. Instead of making Song Bai feel more guilty and sad by taking responsibility, he told him: "I will always be with you, and always love you."

Two huge suitcases were placed at the door, Song Bai followed him, and the hard notebook was full of travel itinerary plans.

Song Bai arrived at the airport, picked up the ticket, but felt chills all over when he went through the security check.Looking up, he saw the ticket inspector smiling straight at him, a smiling face gradually distorted into Ji Suiyun's face.

The ghostly man said to him: "Two months are not over yet, where are you going?"

Song Bai sat up abruptly, his back was sticky with cold sweat, he closed his eyes and opened them again, and wiped his face with the back of his hand.

After accepting the fact that he woke up from the nightmare, Song Bai gradually realized that something was wrong in the house. It was already completely dark. When he tried to look out, he clearly saw a faint figure sitting on the chair by the door.

Song Bai was shocked, and every cry was stuck in his throat.He wrapped himself in a quilt and hid at the head of the bed, trembling to get his phone.

"Don't be afraid, it's me."

It was Ji Suiyun's voice.

"You were sound asleep when I came, so I didn't call you."

Song Bai's body still did not dare to relax, he was still watching Ji Suiyun vigilantly and panicked from a distance.

Ji Suiyun didn't know when he didn't like Song Bai and was afraid of himself like a scourge.He stood up and walked over, dragging Song Bai over with the quilt.

"Why, are you scared now? I thought you'd be emboldened when you saw Lu Fucheng." Ji Suiyun deliberately said in a cold tone: "You still dare to talk like that in the afternoon, and I won't answer your phone call, you are so big Face."

It's different after all, although it's the fault of Song Bai, but when Ji Suiyun hugged Song Bai, he couldn't get angry.He thought, if it was Song Bai who made him angry, it would be fine.

Song Bai stretched out his hand to reach Ji Suiyun's chest in vain, and turned his face away unwilling to look at him.

Ji Suiyun didn't allow him to hide, and reached out to pinch his chin to make him turn his head back.Ji Suiyun gently kissed Song Bai's cheek, but his tears were cold.

"Having a nightmare?"

Song Bai refused to be touched by him, and said in a gruff voice, "Why would Lu Fucheng know?"

Ji Suiyun pursed his lips tightly, his patience with Song Bai could only stop at this name.

The three words Lu Fucheng have become sensitive words when they get along.

What suddenly burned in Ji Suiyun's heart was a killing intent that had never been so strong.

"I swear to you, I didn't say a single word." Of course, it's none of our business whether other people say Ji Suiyun consciously.

Song Bai smiled sadly: "Does Mr. Ji still need to talk when he does something? You deliberately kept me out at night, and brought me an eye-catching dress. Isn't that enough?"

"You want to go back, I'll bring you a high-necked dress, but you go back with hickeys all over your neck?" Ji Suiyun didn't want to get entangled in Lu Fucheng's matter, and turned his eyes coldly: "First of all, this matter If I were doing it myself, my style would be to send him a video of how hot and flirtatious you are with me. Then I'd call his boss and get him out, and stuff it Drunk down, threw him with a prostitute and called the police. Sue him for rape. He will feel that he can’t drag you down. How nice it is for you to be happy with me voluntarily. I don’t have to be a villain at all.”

Song Bai fell into an ice cave, his voice trembling slightly: "How much do you want to force me to do? Do you have to torture me to death for these two months?"

Ji Suiyun pulled the quilt off his body, the sour musty smell made him really uncomfortable.Song Bai didn't take off his clothes when he was sleeping, and all the fabrics on his body were wrinkled wretchedly.

Ji Suiyun didn't answer Song Bai's question, but brought him down: "You haven't eaten all day, go back first, I'll find someone to cook."

Ji Suiyun drove here in person today, no one is downstairs to warm up the car, the car has been parked for a long time, and it is cold inside.

Song Bai couldn't help shivering.Ji Suiyun took off his black thin cashmere coat and put it on Song Bai's body.

Song Bai wanted to pull down the clothes.

"Wait a minute, the air conditioner will heat up soon, and I'll take it off when the time comes."

Song Bai felt unprecedented danger and fear, his lips turned as pale as his face.

"Ji Suiyun, after two months, will you really let me go?"

Song Bai rarely called Ji Suiyun's name, and he could count them with just one slap.Every time he called Ji Suiyun, his pronunciation was very accurate and clear, and he recognized the truth at first glance.

There was no fluctuation on Ji Suiyun's face, he just said: "When that day comes, the choice is in your hands."

Song Bai responded softly, he already had a clear idea in his heart because of that dream.Often a lot of harm to close people comes from well-intentioned concealment. When Ji Suiyun lets him go, Song Bai will tell Lu Fucheng everything, about Ji Suiyun's threat, and everything Ji Suiyun did to him.

Song Baihui told Lu Fucheng that he actually went there by himself on the day of the accident. He was standing at minus 20 degrees at night and knocked on the window of the guard room to ask for news.He even glanced at him through the door of the ward, feeling miserable.

He told Lu Fucheng his deception, told about the video that was like a time bomb, and told about the dirty round with Feng Zhengqi and Ji Suiyun.violent.

As long as Lu Fucheng doesn't hate and despise himself, Song Bai would rather spend his whole life feeling sorry for Lu Fucheng's guilt.

Inside the small car, Ji Suiyun and Song Bai kept silent with different thoughts.Ji Suiyun knew too well how far Song Bai's progress had come, and he would never give Song Bai any leeway.

Maybe one day Ji Suiyun will lose interest in Song Bai, but definitely not now.As long as Ji Suiyun wanted him for a day, Lu Fucheng would not have the capital to compete with him.

There is essentially no difference between the powerful and those who want it. They have to be robbed, and they use the ferocity of a wild beast to hunt for food. Usually, the methods are dirty and bloody.

Ji Suiyun drove very fast, and the nanny was heating the soup for the second time when he arrived home.

Ji Suiyun let her go after watching her clear the dining table.

Song Bai really didn't eat anything all day.But he didn't feel hungry, he just felt light and tired, and his hands and feet were cold.

Ji Suiyun served Song Bai a bowl of wax gourd and mutton chop soup, and the hot air of the soup floated up, exuding a rich aroma.

Song Bai drank some soup, his body became warmer, he looked at his watch, it was only past eight o'clock.

Song Bai ate quickly, and only drank half a bowl of pumpkin porridge.He glanced at Ji Suiyun, put down the spoon and stood up: "I'm going to take a shower."

Ji Suiyun frowned and stared at him for a while: "Why are you in a hurry."

Song Bai lowered his eyes and said softly, "I want to go back early tonight."

Ji Suiyun wanted to restrain his anger, so he didn't look at Song Bai, but fixed his eyes on the set of orchid bone china tableware with black border on the dining table.

Song Bai didn't understand what Ji Suiyun meant, stood for a while seeing Ji Suiyun's noncommittal attitude, turned around and left tentatively.After he had walked a few steps, he heard a loud noise behind him.

The soup was shattered all over the floor, and Ji Suiyun sat on the chair and sank like water.

"Go back?" Ji Suiyun sneered: "Can you go back?"

Ji Suiyun stood up abruptly, and his tall figure cast a heavy shadow: "You go back and just turn Lu Fucheng's guess into reality. You can persuade him to endure, but you still have to hold me down for ten days. I can let you back for ten days. Oh, you go back with dirty marks every day, which man can bear it? If you can't see Lu Fucheng, I don't mind telling him what the consequences are when he finds him. "

How could a man be able to stand his lover lying under others every night, the deeper the love, the harder it is to accept.Maybe something extreme will be done regardless of the cost.

Song Bai didn't refute, and also lost his persistence.He nodded numbly, stared at the mess for a while and turned around to find something to clean up.

Ji Suiyun looked at Song Bai who was squatting on the ground picking up the debris, and felt a twitch in his heart.He said in a deep voice, "Don't do it."

"There is a smell, and when someone comes tomorrow to clean up the smell, it is estimated that the house is full of smell."

Ji Suiyun also knew, but seeing Song Bai in a trance, he was afraid that he would get hurt if he lost his mind.

"Don't do it." Ji Suiyun said it again, after a pause, he added: "I'll do it."

Song Bai raised his head and glanced at him quickly, which made it difficult for Ji Suiyun to catch any emotion in his eyes.

Song Bai still put down his things, but he didn't leave either, standing in a place out of the way and looking at Ji Suiyun.

Song Bai already had a vague guess in his heart, but he didn't dare to confirm it.Once confirmed, it will be a disaster for Song Bai, and it is also the most powerful means of self-protection.

Ji Suiyun didn't chase him away, and he seemed a little more relaxed and happy than before.Ji Suiyun hadn't done this kind of work before, and a few thin bloodstains were cut on his hands in a few moments of distraction.

Song Bai walked away suddenly.

Ji Suiyun felt an imperceptible loss in his heart. While tidying up the floor, he savored this strange sourness carefully.

But soon, Song Bai came back again.He held the small medical kit that appeared in this room at some point in his hand, and looked at Ji Suiyun with a hint of reluctance in his eyes.

Ji Suiyun is changing, Song Bai is also testing.

"...Hand, do you want to do it?"

Ji Suiyun suddenly smiled: "Okay, I'll do it after I finish cleaning."

Song Bai nodded, and sat on a chair beside him with his chin propped up to watch Ji Suiyun tidy up.

Ji Suiyun moved much faster, recklessly, like a child.

The ground was quickly cleaned up, and Ji Suiyun went to wash his greasy hands carefully before sitting in front of Song Bai.

Song Bai didn't say much, he opened the medicine box and found a few things that could be used.

Song Bai gently held Ji Suiyun's finger in one hand, and disinfected the small wound with an iodophor cotton swab in the other.

Ji Suiyun only felt that the place Song Bai touched seemed to be electrified, and he climbed numbly along his spine, and his whole body was light.It's obviously just such a simple and pure action.

"Does it hurt?" Song Bai felt the slight tremor, and asked.

"It doesn't hurt, you do it."

Song Bai nodded, his head was lowered, his dark and soft hair was facing Ji Suiyun's increasingly fiery eyes.

Ji Suiyun couldn't hold back, and gently touched Song Bai's hair with his right hand that had been treated with a band-aid.

Song Bai trembled, but didn't move, his hand was as light as ever.

No matter how ferocious beasts are fed and smoothed, they are gentle.This afternoon, Ji Suiyun was clearly furious and out of control in the office, but after nightfall, he became so soft.

He hugged Song Bai lightly as if he was hugging some kind of treasure.For the first time on the bed, he didn't hold Song Bai's waist tightly, but occupied him face to face, holding his face and kissing him all the time.Ji Suiyun kisses Song Bai's face, Song Bai's lips, and his sweaty hair.

Ji Suiyun called him "Ninny" and called him baby. When Ji Suiyun climbed to the top, his thin lips opened and closed, and he said silently: "I like you."

Suddenly waking up, Rao Ji Suiyun was covered in cold sweat.