expired brother

Chapter 52 The Ruan Ruan That Makes Me Proud

At the beginning of the Chinese lanterns, the treetops on both sides of the street are covered with decorative small light bulbs, and there are fire trees and silver flowers all the way.

Ruan Fangyu finally compromised again under Zhang Xinghang's insistence that he would rather die than surrender, and let Zhang Xinghang carry him.With the vegetables they bought hanging on the handlebars of their bikes, they rode all the way from the bustling streets to the alleys with sparse street lights.

It was completely dark when the two arrived at the entrance of the alley. Grandma's feet could barely get off the ground today. She stood under the old pagoda tree at the entrance of the alley, leaning on the rough bark, and listened attentively to the movement at the end of the road.

The familiar creaking sound of the bicycle sounded, and Ruan Fangyu jumped out of the bicycle and took two quick steps to hold her hand.

"Grandma."

Zhang Xinghang stopped the car with one foot on the ground, and also called "Grandma".

"Hanghang is here too." Ruan Fangyu clearly felt Grandma's extra joy.She freed her other hand to hold Xinghang, and asked kindly: "Haven't you eaten yet? Let's go home together."

For the first time in a long time, someone mentioned the word "go home" on the flight of the star, and he didn't feel disgusted.

He was stunned for a moment, but it was only a pause of less than a second, and the smile at the end of his eyes was pulled away, and he held Grandma's hand and walked towards the alley together, smiling face up to be good.

"I haven't seen Grandma for many days. I always want to eat taro cooked by Grandma."

"I have it at home, eat more later."

"I miss not only the taro cooked by Grandma, but also Grandma. I miss it every day."

"Hey, Hang Hang's mouth is so sweet. If you want to eat anything in the future, just come here and let Ruan Ruan make it for you."

"Okay, thank you Mamaw."

Ruan Fangyu looked at the grandparents and grandchildren, laughing and talking, coaxing each other with each other.Inexplicably feel that the atmosphere is a bit weird...

Because there is a big bowl of delicious crucian carp tofu soup and Guizhou winter bamboo shoots, the dinner is very rich.

The bamboo shoots are shredded and then vacuum-packed and refrigerated. The umami taste is greatly reduced, but it is still a rare delicacy for Ruan Fangyu.

As a part-time job he developed, he eats very fast, but his voice is very soft, and he eats food and soup, quickly but not rudely.

Zhang Xinghang didn't eat the bamboo shoots he asked for, instead he ate half a pot of taro with a bowl of crucian carp soup for the whole meal.

Ruan Fangyu's stewing skills are limited, and the busy life for so many years has not given him the opportunity to polish his cooking skills. The crucian carp soup smells fishy, ​​which is not satisfactory.

However, Zhang Xinghang bent down his eyes and drank with enjoyment on his face, even swallowing the coriander that he never accepted before.

Grandma rubbed the rim of the bowl to pick up vegetables for Zhang Xinghang, and for Ruan Fangyu.

"Ruan Ruan loves bamboo shoots the most..."

"Grandma." Ruan Fangyu raised her head, her voice was suppressed, and she interrupted what she wanted to say next with reproach. "Eat well." After he finished speaking, he put a chopstick in Grandma's mouth to cover his mouth.

Ruan Fangyu really likes to eat bamboo shoots, but since he was sensible, he hardly bought them.They only eat potatoes, taro, onions and cabbage, which are cheap and plentiful vegetables throughout the year, and even small rapeseed is only occasionally, let alone bamboo shoots.

Chaoyang is surrounded by the sea and does not produce bamboo.Therefore, whether it is off-season or in-season, it is very expensive for him.One meal is worth several meals, and nothing will happen if you don’t eat it.

Because of this, Grandma felt guilty, feeling that she was saving food and money every day, and did not take good care of the child.

Ruan Fangyu didn't feel anything, he was luckier than many people in this world if he survived, went to school, and had grandma.

After eating, Ruan Fangyu pushed away Zhang Xinghang's helping hand and went to the corner sink to wash the dishes alone.

"Hanghang." Grandma stretched out her hand to beckon him. "Let Ruan Ruan wash, you come and accompany me to the door to cool off."

At the entrance of the alley, an old street lamp gave off a faint light, and flies and insects made a popping sound when they hit the ugly lampshade.Ruan Fangyu's bicycle is leaning against the old locust tree, and there is a stone slab in front for people to sit and enjoy the shade.

With Zhang Xinghang's support, Grandma felt the familiar patina on the slate and sat down.Her eyes were blank, and when Ruan Fangyu couldn't see this side, she showed a sad expression without concealing it.

Zhang Xinghang stood behind him, half of his shoulders were not in the shadow cast by the old locust tree, and half of his shoulders were standing under the light, looking down at Grandma's face which was black under the dim light——

It was a lifeless color, like pottery figurines molded in temples, drooping and lifeless.

"Ruan Ruan is seventeen this year. She was born on the seventh day of the first lunar month, and she is a whole year old." Grandma rubbed the surface of the stone slab with her palm frequently, recalling. "That's where I picked him up.

"It was about this time, just beginning of summer, and it started to get hot. He wrapped a white gauze scarf with his name and birthday written on it. The seventh day of the first month of the lunar calendar that year was March [-]th of the Gregorian calendar. I calculated, then At that time, he had not passed a hundred days."

The baby, who was less than [-] days old, was thrown in the alley in Chuxia. When Grandma saw it, her little face had already been bitten by mosquitoes, like an abandoned cat.

"Ruan Ruan has been sensible since he was a child." Grandma said, "I made an agreement with the people around me to ask everyone to help hide his background. But in the streets and alleys, no one would say anything wrong. When he was in elementary school, one day he His clothes were torn, and he ran back crying, saying that my classmates said that I was not his grandma."

Grandma's cloudy eyes were full of cloudy tears, and the old man's eyes and heart were dry, and even the sad tears were full of vicissitudes and no longer transparent.

"Later it spread, and if someone said it again, he would beat someone. You thought he thought he was a child who was abandoned by others. No, Ruan Ruan just didn't want to hear people say that we didn't kiss."

The children's world is always simple, in Ruan Fangyu's eyes, either they kiss grandma or they don't.

Zhang Xinghang lowered his eyelids, and when Grandma talked about the past, he shed tears in vain. He stood beside him, numb and numb.

He lacks the ability to empathize. Even though he clearly feels those things are beating his heart, he doesn't know how to express a response, and he doesn't even know what to look like.

Grandma simply couldn't see, so he could save acting.

Time and space seem to be distorted and overlapped at this moment. Grandma raised her head and pulled out endless memories in the dark river in front of her eyes. After she lost her eyesight, she often took out colorful things from the past, one by one. Items, accompanied by a sense of loss that is fading away, as the memories become deeper and clearer in my mind day after day...

"Ruan Ruan is a good boy." Grandma repeated with tears on her face. "He is careful, he wants to treat someone well, and his heart is like the eye of a needle."

"When he was in junior high school, he was the only one who was eligible for the entrance examination at No. [-] Middle School. The school served lunch at noon, fried noodle fish, and he smelled the smell during the exam, so he asked the invigilator for two extra calculation papers. to eat, secretly wrapped it up, and couldn’t bring it into the exam room for the afternoon exam, and put it outside for fear of being sunburned, so he thought of a way to hide it in the grass, and took it out to me after the exam in the afternoon, because he felt that, I haven't eaten..." Grandma choked up, but still insisted on saying intermittently: "The greatest blessing in my life is that I have raised Ruan Ruan."

But now, her life has come to an end.Ruan Ruan, who made her contented and proud all her life...

How should his life go on?

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ps: There is another chapter today.