expired brother

Chapter 53 He Loves Carefully

Grandma's words were like a soft force, silently trickling into his heart, making him feel a strange feeling, like ants circling around the apex of his heart and biting him from time to time.

Zhang Xinghang opened his eyelids, looked sideways at the dim yellow light through the narrow alley.

"So?" Although Grandma didn't mention a word of caring, his nerves were as keen as snail tentacles to detect the hidden purpose behind all these words.

Zhang Xinghang asked plainly: "Do you want me to take care of him instead of you?"

He must be with Ruan Fangyu, and paranoid that Ruan Fangyu must belong to him.

But accepting Grandma's entrustment and taking on the responsibility of giving deep and tender love, he didn't know how to do it.

The word "care" is just two dry words in his mind since he was a child. He has never been taken care of by others and will not take care of others.Although he deliberately concealed it, he was indeed abnormal.

He still remembers raising a goldfish when he was a child and taking good care of it, but it turned white and died on the third day. He lay in front of the fish tank, looking at the fish floating among the green water plants, his eyes turned lifeless gray and white, and his heart arose. a mood...

He remembered that day when he was smiling all over his face, carrying the clinking dishes on the dinner plate, and painstakingly climbed up more than a dozen spiral stairs, standing at the door of the room, having breakfast to please Mrs. Zhang, he was greeted by a woman who got up very angry. His feet were kicked away, and the cups and plates were messed up all over the floor. He was lying in it like a clown with mixed performances, funny and funny.

At that time, he felt the same way in his heart.

He hates this kind of emotion, which makes him unhappy and unable to get it out.So he pushed the water surface with his hand and took the fish in his hand...

Zhang Nanxing patted his head and frowned, bent down and asked softly: "Hanghang, are you sad?"

Zhang Xinghang lowered his eyes, judged in his heart, knew what he should answer, looked at the thing in his palm that he loved that turned into something he hated in an instant, and even helped that woman hurt him together, and said in cooperation: "Yes, I'm so sad .”

Slowly closing his palms, he crushed the instigator who caused the abnormality in his heart, and the internal organs and blood were crushed out from between his fingers, and the fish that had been carefully cared for disappeared just like that.

Zhang Xinghang can give love, he can twist his long and crooked bones to live toward the light, but he dare not take care of him—he is afraid that Ruan Fangyu will become that fish one day and be crushed in his palm by his paranoia.

He felt that there was a frozen river between himself and Ruan Fangyu, looking around in a daze, he couldn't see anything, but he had to go to the opposite side.So he has to carefully test every step he takes, and only after he is sure it is safe can he settle down, tearing a small hole in his heart, revealing the emotions he thinks are correct.Step on the next step.

He loves like walking on thin ice... Take care is a bold word, too heavy, and it will split the fragile ice surface that he has worked so hard to maintain. After his heart is completely opened, he is not unique to the sunshine on the way to school and the palm of his hand. The flower branches were a dirty and smelly mess, gray dead fish eyes mixed with blood and crushed internal organs.

Because he is an out-and-out psychopath.

Zhang Xinghang said very lightly, "Brother doesn't need me."

Until he fully adjusted himself, it was safer for Ruan Fangyu to take care of himself.

Grandma raised her face, unable to see any emotions, but her voice was light and helpless. "But you need Ruan Ruan."

Zhang Xinghang's heart beat twice when the words came out, as if someone told him: You can stand on the ice and wait for the person opposite to come forward to hold your hand and lead you in the right direction.

He lowered his eyelids and didn't answer.

The two fell silent.

The half-dead street lamps glowed yellowish, mosquitoes and flies hit the old covers and made popping noises, insects rustled in the vines by the roadside, and the night sky at the end of the stretch of houses in the old city was dotted with stars.The end is bustling, no matter how far away, you can't see clearly.

The conversation between Grandma and Zhang Xinghangye was like an episode. After returning to the house, she was as warm and friendly as when she left. Grandma was sent to sleep by Ruan Fangyu.

The thick quilt on the bed a few days ago has been replaced by a thin summer quilt.Sleeping on the table in this kind of weather won't catch a cold anymore, but Ruan Fangyu consciously rolled over to the inside after going to bed, leaving half an open space on the outside, and Zhang Xinghang lay down on his shoulder.

Without words, they reached a tacit agreement in their hearts at this moment.

Ruan Fangyu was tired all day, just closed his eyes, the mobile phone next to the pillow seemed to have eyes, deliberately picked a message at this time, seven or eight vibrations in a row, the mobile phone jumped happily on the bed like a hidden object for self-entertainment in the dead of night .

Ruan Fangyu still had aftershocks when he touched it in his hand, and squinted against the glare to see who was "playing" in the middle of the night.

The note is that the person from [Nizi] with a funny smiling face dumped him a bunch of emoticons, and a row of people crying for help and calling for dad.

Huang Yang, on behalf of the whole class, strongly condemned Zhang Xinghang and Ruan Fangyu for asking for leave together and causing the math tragedy.God knows that Lao Huang almost sacrificed a high number because of the probability, and added an additional question paper at night.

When Ruan Fangyu was holding it in his hand, Huang Yangzheng saw that there was no reply for a long time, thinking that Ruan Fangyu was "unreadable" like before, and sent an angry emoji of beating.

Ruan Fangyu wanted him to calm down, and reluctantly replied: "Son, kneel down and rest."

Before sending it, Huang Yang followed up with two identical beating angry expressions.

The chat box stopped moving, and the colored stripes flickered from top to bottom to cut the screen, followed by the familiar black screen.

In the dimly lit room, the light cast on Ruan Fangyu's face was instantly extinguished.He gritted his back molars and took a hissing breath, thinking that Huang Yang really deserves to be single for 17 years, and besides Zhang Xinghang, this is the second person who can give him a mobile phone card machine based on information alone.

"What's wrong?" Zhang Xinghang turned his face when he heard the voice.

"It's nothing." Ruan Fangyu dropped the phone.

"Oh."

Ruan Fangyu took another breath, turned her face to the side, and thought to herself, what's the matter with your lost tone?He turned too fast, and Zhang Xinghang hadn't turned back yet. On the small bed, his face was caught off guard. He couldn't see each other in the dark, but he could feel the closeness of each other's breath.

Zhang Xinghang's toothpaste is green tea flavored...

Ruan Fangyu turned back resolutely, because the smell of toothpaste made her heart beat faster for a few seconds, she scolded the coquette in her heart, and after scolding, she reflected on how guilty she was to avoid just now.

In order to save face, he moved forward, pretended to fiddle with the phone with a black screen twice, and then turned back calmly after pulling away, and said casually: "It's really nothing, just now Huang Yang fell ill and sent me crazy messages. As a result My mobile phone couldn’t stand the torture and committed suicide.”

In the dark, Ruan Fangyu couldn't see Zhang Xinghang's appearance, but he could hear a light laugh coming from the pillow, and the face when the laugh came naturally in his mind—it was clearly a bad joke.

"Brother, close your eyes."

Ruan Fangyu noticed that the bed beside her was light, and the legs of the bed creaked. It was Zhang Xinghang who got up.

He sat up vigilantly and asked, "What are you doing?!"

"The light is too bright, don't dazzle your eyes." Suddenly turning on the light in the dark will indeed cause short-term stinging to the eyes.Zhang Xinghang covered his eyes. "good."

He stepped on the concrete floor with bare feet, groped to the desk in front of the window and took out something from his schoolbag, then touched the switch at the door to turn on the light.

Zhang Xinghang walked back in two or three steps, put the things that had been in the schoolbag for many days on Ruan Fangyu's lap, and said, "I wanted to give it to you before, but I'm afraid you won't accept it."

Ruan Fangyu's pupils stared at the contents of the box - he really wouldn't accept it, it was too expensive.